I stayed in my quarters for a while, creating intricate designs on the ceiling with ice.
I tried to make something beautiful with this power to remind myself it was a blessing.
A challenging blessing, but a blessing nonetheless.
I was stressed and depressed and still terrified. Every time I shut my eyes I saw the giant man and smelled the smoke. I felt his rough hands.
I just focused on my breathing and the ice designs for hours, finishing with a pretty picture of a lion. I left that design on the ceiling as a reminder.
I knew I had drove a barrier between many of my relationships in the last few hours. I could see it in their body language. Caspian was angry, Lucy was upset, Edmund was scared.
But Aslan wouldn't leave me, He would always be there. Yes, I thought, I'll leave the lion on the wall. Aslan, always watching.
I grabbed a candle that was almost completely melted, the hot wax a pool on the bottom of the tray. Carefully I balanced the candle in my hand and slipped out of my room, my bare feet silent upon the ship's wooden floors.
I crept onto the decks and searched for anyone nearby. It was that time between late in the evening and early in the morning - pitch black, with only the stars to keep you company.
Two crew members lingered near the ship's steering wheel, while another sat up on a barrel near them. The men noticed me and greeted me with curt nods. I waved back, then moved on.Caspian hated it when I did this, but it cleared my mind. I walked to the ship's bowsprit, the large wooden beam that extended over the ocean. I set my candle on a crate and nimbly hopped over the rail and onto the bowsprit. It was sturdy, but thin. One wrong move and I would slip into the ocean, lost in the dark depths. I carefully chose my steps and made it to the end of the bowsprit, then lowered myself so I was saddled on it, my legs hanging over either side, like riding a horse.
I looked down at the ocean water below. The waves lapped against the ship in a constant rhythm. Salty, cool night air blew through my hair. I sat there for a few minutes, breathing in the chilly air.
"You know, I hate when you do this."
Caspian's voice didn't startled me, in fact, I pretty much expected him to show up.
"I won't fall," I replied simply, not turning back to him.
I felt the bowsprit creak and turned, surprised to see my brother shuffling himself towards me.
I chuckled. "Cas, what are you doing? You hate heights."
He let out a shaky laugh. "I'm not looking down, Y/N. Besides, is it a crime to keep my sister company?"
He scooted near me and I gracefully spin so we faced each other. In the moonlight, I could make out his anxious expression.
"Caspian, you don't have to be out here. I know how much this makes you uncomfortable."
Caspian sighed. "I'm fine. I'd do anything for you, sis. Anything."
His tone was genuine, but I detected some harshness in his sentence.
"Are you doing alright?" I asked innocently.
Caspian shrugged. "I- no, Y/N, I'm not. But I don't want to complain."
"Complaining isn't a crime, either, Cas."
"You'll hate me for saying it."
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The Trials We Face | E. Pevensie
Romance[ EDMUND x READER ] [ chronicles of narnia: the voyage of the dawn treader ] !! SEQUEL !! to "The Cold and The Just" Edmund is back in Narnia, along with sister Lucy and annoying cousin, Eustace. Y/N is overjoyed to see Edmund, but the trials they f...