I want to feel better,
I want to run,
I want to hide my face in shame.
I'm humiliated to be me and guilty I feel that way.
I want to feel free,
I want to live naturally,
not in society,
but I want the comfort of society
with the freedom of the wild.
I want to tie anchors to my legs and
drop myself in the ocean and
see if the water would even care to drown me.
I want to live happily but happiness is so evasive to me.
Damn it, stop running away from me.
