Her Moonchild

18

I know it has always been Namjoon's but this time, I wanted to share where Kaizan's feeling stood after everything.

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Kaizan's POV

My right hand balled into a fist as I try to suppress the uneasiness within me, my other hand turning pale at how tight I was gripping my phone close to my ears as I wait for Namjoon to answer.

It has been two days but he never called.

I knew I told him I would call him which I did, but I was kinda hoping that he would at least called me back after he missed all of my three calls.

And here I am about to lose my shit yet I was trying to keep myself together since I don't exactly have the luxury to mope around over my love life.

Who would have thought loving a worldwide superstar will be this hard?

Everyone, except me.

I told him I will be free when he is...

That I will adjust for him but I failed every single time.

And I know me being emotionally unstable like this is probably hurting him as well.

Why do I have to be so stupid and add up to the burden that he had been trying to carry on his own?

I knew very much how much he was having a hard time being RM of BTS.

He looked okay but I know there are moments that he's scared, scared that his words and actions will cause harm to his members.

He's afraid to be criticized.

He's afraid to be him. But he doesn't show because he's scared. He doesn't show because he doesn't want to fail people. He doesn't show because he loves what he was doing.

I've been a fan ever since and that day I helped Chaeyoung, I didn't know it will be the reason for me to meet the rest of the boys.

A smile escaped my lips...

Jin, he's my bias but I never saw him like I saw Namjoon.

I can still remember how me and Namjoon first met...

I glared at him so bad but I did it because I was embarrassed.

I know he thought it was about him speaking his thoughts out loud but the truth was, I found his words cute.

I bite my lower lip in frustration.

Namjoon, why are you not answering?

You didn't give, did you?