Children of Lust or Love

Chapter 1: Loving or Lusting?

My mommy was a hard worker. She worked at a advertisement company. She made billboards, commericals, radio advertisements, ect. Recently, shes been coming home at 10 o'clock at night and she smells weird. Mom's name is Shelley and shes 36 and my dad's name is Fredrick; his 46. One night when mom came home, she went into the kitchen while dad was doing dishes and I was sitting at the table combing my hair and watching Spongebob. Mom busted in the door and dad told me to go upstairs to my room. I heard mommy yelling at daddy saying that he was a dead beat father, whatever that means. Remember Im 10 years old here.

"Sweetheart, you're drunk. Just go lay down." dad said.

"No! I dont want to. I wan'a fuck but you disgust me! I cant believe what you did!!"

"I didn't do anything, Shelley. What are you talking about?"

I heard a HUGE smack. You could hear the sound like it was from a whip. The sound of a hand hit right across the face of someone's skin. I could only imagine that its red as a lobster and stings like 10 bees. Mom looked at the sink and slapped dad again.

"And thats for fucking up the dishes!"

Mom walked away and came up the stairs. I flinched as she picked me up and kissed me on my forehead.

"Its okay, sweetheart. Lets get you into bed." she told me.

I put my arms around her neck and started to fall alseep. She opened my door and walked over to my bed. She pulled back my covers and stuffed animals. Laid me down on the bed and covered me up; brushed my hair out of my face and turned out the lights.

It happened again and again and again and again.. This went on for about two months and then it got mixed up one night when she came home.

"Fredrick, you're a no good," he walked over to her, " lying, cheap shot for a father!" she said as she raised her hand, but instead of hitting dad she back handed me.

In April of 1993, dad was upset and confused. I think he was drinking. He came in one night and pulled the covers back. I woke up and fightened. I didnt know exactly what was happening, but it hit me when he tried to take my pants off.