Children of Lust or Love

Chapter 3: Years Later

"Looking back, Doc. I dont know why I didnt do something about it earlier."

"Well, Eddy. You were a child. You were 16 and you didnt know what was happening. You were adjusting to the new teenage life of hormones and lust. You aren't having sex at the moment with anyone, are you Eddy?"

"No ma'am. Im not. Im saving myself, but all of my friends are. Im scared to do anything with a girl."

"Eddy, why are you scared?"

"I dont want to have sexual intercourse with someone that I dont love or doesnt love me."

"I see." my therepist said and then the timer went off.

"Okay, Eddy. Our time is up. I will see you tomorrow. Okay?"

"Okay, Doc. Have a nice day."

Ive been seeing Doctor Trudi since I was 16. I started seeing her because...well because.. well I just dont remember at the moment. Wait, I remember. I started seeing her because of..Jenny. I found out that I had an obsession and it was a good thing I got help. Ive talked to Trudi about Dad, the abuse, the molestion, and most of all, Jenny. I still think about her once in awhile. Wondering how shes doing. I heard from Jamie that she moved again. He told me that before he died. About a year or so ago, Jamie died in a car wreck. It was his mom, his sister, and him. The car hit the back of their car. Jamie was the only one that died. I guess God need Jamie for something. Or maybe to give me help from the other side.

Sitting in my room watching TV and realized what I had to do. Later that night, I called Jenny's number from my cell phone. No answer.