June 8, 2012 9:18PM Daniel’s POV
I couldn’t believe this was actually happening. A night that was supposed to be filled with romance turned into a night filled with tragedy. I stayed with Bonnie the entire ambulance ride over here, but as soon as they brought her into the hospital I was told to wait in the waiting room. After about 45 minutes, I managed to sneak into Bonnie’s room as soon as all the doctors left. It was hard to see Bonnie like this. Lying motionless on the bed, taking short and shallows breaths. I noticed they managed to get her out of her dress and into a hospital gown. She still looked as beautiful as ever.
I pulled up a chair next to her bed and for a while it was silent, the only noise being the steady beeping of the heart monitor. I took a firm grasp of her hand, hoping she would open her eyes and tell me everything would be okay.
“Bonnie, you can’t do this to me. You can’t. I won’t let you. I made a promise.” I choked out, through all of my tears. She couldn’t leave me. I’d never forgive myself. Ever.
“I made a promise to you Bonnie. I promised I would never let anything happen to you. Especially not anything like this.”
It killed me knowing that Bonnie was laying there because of something I had done. Sure, it wasn’t my fault that the truck ran the stop sign but I should have been so much more careful. Bonnie was a fighter, she wasn’t going to let an injury win this battle. I squeezed Bonnie’s hand tighter, having a little faith she would squeeze back, but she didn’t. I couldn’t do this anymore, I couldn’t stay in here knowing I had done this to her.
“I’m sorry Bonnie. I never got my chance. I never got my chance to prove to you that I- I love you Bonnie. I’m so sorry.” There was a huge pit in my stomach as I stood up. All I could feel at that moment was pure sadness with a hint of guilt.
I let go of Bonnie’s hand and leaned over to kiss her forehead. I walked towards the door but something stopped me. I look back at Bonnie, just before I reach the door, and noticed a single tear streaming down her cheek. As weird as this sounds, that tear actually gave me a little bit of hope. I slowly wiped it away with my thumb and took hold of Bonnie’s hand.
“I’m here Bonnie.” I said aloud. “I’m always here.” I said that in more of a hushed tone, realizing that she probably couldn’t hear me anyways so it didn’t matter. All I needed was for Bonnie to wake up and for both of us to be happy together. Bonnie was my world. I couldn’t leave her like this. I stayed awake for a few more hours, just looking at Bonnie. Watching her to see if she even made the slightest move. I couldn’t help but notice how gorgeous she was, even under all the bandages. I just wanted- no I NEEDED Bonnie to open her eyes and tell me that she was okay. I knew this was something that would take time, but honestly, I just didn’t have enough patience. The only thing on my mind was, “Why not me?”
I decided to stay at the hospital that night. I knew I had to stay with Bonnie. In fact, I didn’t want to leave. What if something changed while I was gone, like her waking up? I didn’t want to miss that!
Before I knew it, a few hours later, I fell asleep.
