BTS One Shots [Discontinued]

My Tears - Namjin

Warning: Mentions of and actions of self-harming/suicide. If it makes you uncomfortable or triggers anything, don't read. 

Namjoon walks through the door just as I am setting up the table. Namjoon's my roommate who works at a nearby business. He's the CEO but he doesn't like to live alone so that's why he's living with me.

"Hey, Joonie. How was work?" He gives me a smile as he takes off his shoes. His dimples are showing which causes me to lightly blush.

"It was tiring, hyung. Sorry I was a little late. My assistant came into my office at the last minute saying I had more work to do." I give him a smile as he sits down in front of me. "How was the cafe today?"

I sigh and sit down in front of him. "It was really busy. Thankfully, I had plenty of workers today." Namjoon laughs and we continue eating in silence.

When we're done eating, Namjoon instantly gets up and goes to the shower. I sigh again and pick up his plate. Namjoon always breaks the plates so he's just gotten used to me picking his plate on his own.

I hear the shower starting and I put the plate down to rub my face. I know Namjoon's hiding something from me. He always asks stuff like what pastries were sold the most or the most requested coffee.

Today, he just shut me out. Did I do something wrong today? Did I mess up the food? For some reason, tears start flowing down my face. Was I not good enough for his attention today? What did I do wrong? I hear the water stop and I quickly wipe away the tears. He doesn't need to know I was crying. I finish up the dishes and rush into my room before Namjoon gets out.

"Jin hyung?" I don't reply, pretending I'm asleep. I hear him sigh. "Oh. Goodnight then, hyung. I'll tell you tomorrow then." He closes the door. I take a deep breath and sit up. What did he want to tell me? I bet he wants me out of the apartment.

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When I wake up in the morning, Namjoon's sitting at the table drinking coffee. "Ah, hyung. I was gonna tell you something yesterday but you were asleep before I could. I, uh, think I like someone." I feel a pain in my chest but I ignore it.

"Alright. Why did you want to tell me?" He looks away in embarrassment and the idea that he's talking about me goes through my head.

He's silent for a little bit until his face brightens up. "Well, you seem to know more about relationships than I do. And I don't know how to tell a person that I like them. Yeah, that's it." I nod and look away. Of course, he wasn't talking about you, Jin. Get your head out of the clouds.

"Just go up and tell them. If they don't have the same feelings, then it's their loss." Namjoon nods.

"Thanks, hyung." I nod and turn away from him. I hear Namjoon sigh and then he gets up to leave. When he's gone, I let out a breathy sigh.

"Why would you think he's talking about you, Jin? It's clear he wasn't. Ken was right. Who would love me? God, Jin," I say to myself as I put away Namjoon's cup. I glance at my arms and it starts to prickle. I quickly look away and get ready for work.

When I'm at work, Jungkook runs up to me. He's a university student who's working here for the money. "Hyung! Someone was asking for a caramel macchiato and I don't know how to make that yet." A smile forms at my face.

"I'll show you, yeah?" Jungkook nods and we head over to the coffee machine. I show him how to make it and soon he's off running to continue orders. Hoseok walks over to me and glances at my arms.