Miss Matched

Chapter 27: In Love With Somebody Else

The days passed by so quickly.

Almost 2 weeks has passed and Harry and I became UK's newest It couple.

Harry did make sure that I don't get to see Jill and Zayn together by taking me out on dates but that resulted to the media eating us alive. There are pictures of us together everywhere but still we don't confirm that we are a couple in public yet but with us always photograph dating, it kinda says that we really are a couple

Sometimes, I doubt it if this is really the right thing to do. I mean I know Jill really likes Harry and I can see the pain in her eyes whenever Harry starts to act all sweet and everything. I don't know what to do; I wanna make Jill happy but what about Harry?

Anyway, Jill and Zayn told us that they stopped dating a few days ago and that they decided to stay as good friends. I know this is supposed to make happy and everything but it doesn't... I mean, I already promise myself that I'll try to forget my feelings for Zayn and love Harry instead (Which is definitely not working) besides it's not like Zayn's gonna love me after that. Now, Zayn was less seen at our place thus making things less painful for me

"Kaleen!..." Jill called out "... I'm gonna go grocery shopping"

I stood up from the sofa and went to the kitchen to where Jill was checking the food on our fridge

"Buy me some taco shells?" I tell her

Jill closes the fridge and looks at me "Taco shells?"

I nodded with a grin "I need extras. Harry will be coming over tonight, he likes tacos"

Her eyes shifted on the floor before nodding "I'll be home before dinner"

I nodded then she finally goes out. 

I took out some coffee flavored ice cream on the fridge and began eating it. I went back to the sofa in the living room and switch the TV on

"Oh... Got to dance UK is on" 

I put my feet up on the sofa and glued my eyes on the TV but I can't seem to focus on what I'm watching for my mind's going crazy. I'm literally going crazy

I reach for the hand mirror that was sitting on the round coffee table in front of me and starred at my reflection

My eyes are tired and my eye bags are getting darker and bigger. My lips on the other hand has thousand of lip bites on them

I haven't been able to sleep properly these days. I just end up sitting on my bed in the middle of night with stuff on my mind that's completely driving me insane, may it be Jill or Harry or Zayn... My mind never gets tired of thinking of them. And in some nights I dreamed of things that happened on what felt like centuries ago instead of weeks, that night when I felt that he wanted and I wanted him, I'll eventually wake up after that with tears streaming down my face

I sighed. Why could I just forget about him? I'm trying but it's just so hard that I can only do it one step at a time

The doorbell rings and I stood up mindlessly to get it

I open the door...

My thoughts shatter immediately at the sight of him. An echo of pain strikes my chest and I just starred at him, unsure of what to do

"Jill left" my voice cracks

"Oh... Um- I need to talk to her about... about something" he says shifting his eyes from the ground to me

"She just left.. She went to the grocery"

"I-... Okay, thanks" he says turning his back

"Zayn!" I don't know why I just did that. My mouth seems to have a mind of its own