palaye royale | completed

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Jessie's p.o.v

it's been 2 days and I still haven't gotten a response back. I would expect it too happen but I didn't think it was actually going to happen.

Now I feel like the worse person in this whole galaxy and I hate myself.

I hate myself for not being confident enough to keep the conversation going and I hate myself for accidentally leading Emerson on. I didnt mean it and now he's eternally mad at me.

Can I just shrivel up into a hole and decompose?

Or is that to morbid.

Can I just fly to his last tour stop and surprise him with flowers and debt-inducing underwear that's going to take me months to pay off?

Maybe he's met someone along his tour and he's taking her to dinner right now and that's why I haven't gotten a response because he's pushed her against the wall like he did to me and is making out with her right now and her clothes are being scattered everywhere and the only air is the particles moving between their lips and -

I need to stop.

Maybe it's not worth it, maybe I really did mess up and this is God telling me that I need to start valuing things before they slip out of reach.