Good Thing | jaeyong [1]

twenty six

Taeyong kneels before a grave stone which bears his father's name and the dates of his birth and death.

"Hi dad. It's me, Taeyong" The broken boy begins to speak to the grave.

Whenever he is hurting and feels as though he has no where else to go, Taeyong will pay a visit to his father.

"God, you'd be so disappointed in me. I am failing in everything regarding life. I can't even keep a relationship going. Jaehyun hates me. Ten hates me. Heck, Yuta probably hates me."

He changes his position so he holds his knees against his chest. Tears warm the surface of his cheeks as he just cries softly.

"I can't be happy. I guess I deserve it. I am so weak father. I never had you to help me learn to be strong. This isn't your fault but it's mine. I should've taken initiative and took myself to school that day. Instead I made you walk me. You were then late to work, just in time to be hit by that falling pile of wood. If you were on time, you would've been driving that crane and the wood would've been moved perfectly. But your pathetic son held you up so you were late. Your son killed you."

Taeyong chuckles as though he has lost his mind before resuming the sobs.

"I'm so sorry dad. It's my fault you aren't here anymore. It's my fault that Lisa is dead. Im basically a murderer. I've killed two people now. Who'll be next? I won't let Jaehyun die. I love him too much. Yuta has a lot to live for. He hasn't even found someone to live for yet. Maybe it'd be best if I died. Then no one else would. They could go on to live happily. It's not like I'd be missed. No one misses a murderer. We would be reunited, dad. We could see each other again. I really miss you. I think that would be a great plan. It's a situation which works for everyone."

Suddenly Taeyong sees someone taking a seat beside him. He looks expecting to see Yuta it Jaehyun but is surprised to see a person who he doesn't fully recognise.

Then it clicks. This is Jaehyun's friend, Doyoung. The person who had dinner with them that one time.

What is he doing here?

"We could die together" He states calmly causing Taeyong to look at him in confusion.

"You speak of it as though it were that easy. As though it wouldn't affect anyone at all."

"It wouldn't. Everyone despises me" Taeyong scowls and Doyoung just chuckles softly.

"You have a boyfriend, a best friend, a sister, a mother and yet they all hate you? Not one of the. would care if you died?"

Taeyong remains quiet and just looks ahead at his father's grave, the tears continuing to fall.

"I have an older brother. Our parents abandoned us when we were young. At one point I was just like you. I wanted to die. But my brother told me he would die with me if I killed myself. He wouldn't let me go without him as it would tear him apart. I love him dearly and I really didn't want him to die because of me."

"That's sad but I don't understand why you are telling me this" The older takes a shaky breath and Doyoung gently wraps an arm around his shoulders.

"Jaehyun would follow you if you killed yourself. He adores you. You wouldn't be saving anyone if you died."

"You didn't hear what he told me at the airport. That didn't sound like adoration."

"He was angry. He says things that he doesn't mean when he's angry. We all do. You are the only one who pushes his buttons that way. He hates it but he loves it. He loves you."

"I love him."

"Then live."

"I'm a murderer."

"You're a fool."

Taeyong chokes back on a sob which causes Doyoung to gently pat his shoulder comfortingly.

The sound of a twig snapping behind them causes both to jump, startled.

They both turn to see Jaehyun and Yuta standing there. Jaehyun has tears streaming down his cheeks as he looks at the pair on the ground.

Doyoung smiles sadly and stands, slowly walking over to Yuta. The pair walk away, leaving Jaehyun and Taeyong alone.

"Taeyong I—" Taeyong interrupts the younger.

"I don't want to hear it. I've already convinced myself so there's no point."

Jaehyun seems to become more upset by this as he takes a seat beside the older.

"Tell me something" Taeyong speaks and Jaehyun is eager to listen.

"Do you hate me?"

"Taeyong, I love you. I fucking love you so much it hurts. The reason I'm here is to stop you from being defeated by your broken mind. I made a promise that I'd save you. If I hated you I wouldn't be trying as hard as I am right now."

Jaehyun speaks truthfully, his voice breaking at the end.

"I'm scared Jae" The older speaks in a quiet tone.

"Why? Why are you scared?" Jaehyun gently pulls the broken boy into his arms as he sobs.

"I'm scared I'm going to kill you just as I have done to Lisa and my father. I don't want you to die."

"You didn't kill them and you aren't going to kill me."

Yuta explained what happened to Taeyong's father on the way to the cemetery. It broke Jaehyun's heart.

"I don't know if you can save me. I'm beyond broken at this point, Jae. Isn't this a waste of your time?"

"Taeyong, you are the one person who I care about more then anything. The one person who has given me a reason to work extremely hard until I've saved you. It hurts me more then you'll ever know to see you like this. I said some awful things at the airport which I really regret. I love you Taeyong and I really wish you wouldn't do this."

Taeyong is shocked by the doctor's words. He pulls away from him slightly and looks him in the eye.

Before Jaehyun can say anything else, the older has his lips pressed against his own.

A/N - so i think there are going to be about 2 chapters left of this story...i've written the first chapter for my new jaeyong fanfic titled 'Boss' which i will publish after this story. i hope you'll look forward to it :)

and yes i will squeeze in another smut before this story ends ;)

thanks for reading!!