Mine |G.D|

25

~Amelia~

The next day I woke up to my cheeks feeling stiff from my tears drying and the huge urge to throw up

I ran to the bathroom and let it all go, brushing my teeth after and walked back to bed

I didn't have the energy to do anything, and I'm not talking to Grayson.

~Grayson~

All night I sat on the floor with my knees to my chest rocking back and forth thinking of what I did.

How all of this is my fault.

I smoked and drank.
I endangered my family.
He's gone cause of me.

Everything I do turns out to be the wrong thing.

Everything was so perfect, Amelia got pregnant, Aaron was happy with us and learning to walk and talk, Ethan was over all the time with Aaron and I spent almost a month with my family

But of course I have to fuck everything up like I always do.

I looked at the clock and saw it was 2 in the afternoon and Amelia hasn't come down to eat.

As a matter of fact she hasn't eaten since lunch yesterday which isn't good for the baby

I made her grilled cheese and served her water and walked upstairs. I went to open the door only to have it locked

I scoffed and got my keys out and unlocked the door hearing her groan

"Princess you have to eat please, it's not good for the baby" I said walking to the night stand setting her food down

She just layed there starring at space hugging a blanket for dear life, I looked closely and saw it was Aaron's blanket he can't sleep without

I sighed and sat next to her but she didn't react as she just layed there

"Princess I love you so much I do but Aaron was my life and the reason I woke up. But now your carrying another reason now please baby eat" I said rubbing her arm

"I'm not hungry" She said and I don't know what set me off but something did making me shoot up off the bed

"I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF YOU ARE OR NOT BUT MY BABY IS. SO FEED IT. I ALREADY LOST ONE CHILD, I'M NOT LOSING ANOTHER CAUSE YOUR BEING FUCKING SELFISH AND STUBBORN" I snapped

She sat up looking hurt but then her whole face changed to looking pissed off

"DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT BEING SELFISH GRAYSON CAUSE THE LAST TIME I CHECKED YOU WERE THE REASON WE LOST OUR SON IN THE FIRST PLACE. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SMOKED AND DRANK THE SAME FUCKING DAY THE SOCIAL WORKER CAME. YOU WERE THE ONE WITH DECISIONS BUT FUCKED US OVER" She snapped back poking my chest with every time she blamed me

"Fine. Dont eat. Kill our baby then. But if you have a miscarriage cause you made YOUR decisions then we're done cause I could never forgive you for that" I said then walked out slamming the door