Love and Basketball (Lauren/You)

Chapter 10

Y/N'S POV

It seemed like hours had passed where Lauren and I discussed a possible future with one another, one in which we were married with kids. I loved the idea just as much as she did, but there was a nagging thought in the back of my mind like there always had been. What if we weren't able to be free from the golf that my father held over us? I didn't know if we were going to truly be able to live the life we wanted. Something told me that he wouldn't fully be gone. He would always be there to antagonize us, and that thought terrified me.

Eventually the smaller girl had fallen back to sleep in my arms, small snores falling from her slightly opened mouth. I looked down at her sleeping form and I could feel a smile spreading across my face subconsciously. I was so in love with her it was just impossible to try to put into words. I relaxed against the headboard and turned my attention to the TV that was still playing in the background quietly. I wasn't actually paying attention to what was playing, but I allowed my thoughts to consume my head. I didn't know what I had to do to make sure that Greg couldn't affect our lives anymore. No matter how much I didn't want to think about the topic, it kept consuming my thoughts to the point where I couldn't stop it.

If he threatened any of my family members, I knew he would either end up in a hospital or he would end up dead. I knew I wasn't going to let him mess with what was mine, and even though I'd be devastated if he did, I would make sure he got what was coming to him. I was knocked out of my daze when Lauren had shuffled in my arms. I quickly looked down as she rolled her shoulders back into where my hand was rested. "Keep scratching." Her raspy, tired voice mumbled out so incoherently I could barely understand her. I chuckled softly to myself and obeyed her orders. The smaller girl instantly fell back asleep, snores resuming to fall from her plump lips.

My mind began to wander again but to a place where Lauren had wanted me to reconcile with the other girls and solve our problems. I had no worries in doing that but the more I thought about it, who was I kidding? I didn't want to face the other girls again because I couldn't justify why I had done what I did to them. At the time I thought it was right but looking back on it now I knew it wasn't, and I couldn't blame anyone except myself. All my problems stemmed from a time where I thought I was doing something right but in all actuality, I wasn't. I couldn't justify that to the girls, they would never forgive me for it. I reached for my phone on the nightstand and hesitantly pulled up Dinah's contact. I clicked the icon for iMessage and it brought up a new chat. I bit my bottom lip in thought as I tried to come up with something intelligent to say. I began typing with one hand until my message was ready to send.

Y/N: Hey, it's Y/N. I know last time didn't go very well, but I would like another chance to talk to you and the rest of the girls to try to explain myself for the way I treated all of you. I know it wasn't right, and I would like to apologize to all of you. I'm not sure when you guys will have a free second, but if you could let me know then I'd love to set up a time where we can talk. If you don't want to hear me out, I understand that too. I don't deserve another chance but I promise to make it up to you if I'm allowed to. If you could tell the other girls about this too then that'd be great. I hope to hear from you soon.

My thumb hit send before I could stop myself and I mentally cursed myself. I locked my phone nonetheless, setting it back on the nightstand as I awaited Dinah's reply if she even decided to do so. In all honesty, I missed Dinah's friendship along with the other girls. I was praying for a second chance even though I didn't technically deserve one. I rested my unoccupied hand behind my head and closed my eyes, trying to keep myself calm so that I didn't wake Lauren up again. It wasn't until I felt the coldness of metal against my head that my eyes snapped open again. I didn't dare move, already knowing who it was.