Suicide- part 2- Jackson P.O.V

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It's been 5 days. 5 days and my baby still hasn't woke up. She was put on life support and all we were allowed to do was sit in the waiting room. I did. All 5 days. It's the 6th day today, she hasn't woke up.

"Jackson, you have to leave at some point." Maya says looking at me.

"No. I'm staying here." I said looking at Maya.

"Come on Jackson!" Aaron pleaded.

"She is the love of my life, my best friend, and my other half! IM NOT LEAVING HER HERE ALONE!" I yelled at them. My eyes softened. "Sorry. I didn't mean to yell. I just haven't gotten any sleep."

"Then come with us." Alex said.

"No." I shook my head.

Then I remembered her mom and step dads funeral. They postponed it to next week so maybe Alana could go.

Or be in it.

No Jackson don't think like that! Alana is not going to die!

"Jackson, you're not getting any sleep." Maya's eyes softened. She didn't want to leave either but she had to because the 1st few days she was here she was crying the whole time.

I sigh, "Maya. Even if I leave, which I'm not doing, I'm not going to get any sleep."

"Jackson..." Aaron began. I shook my head and got on my phone.

I decided to post on Instagram.

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Just_Jackson- Someone wake up my baby😭😫 She is still not awake after 5 days going on 6. I love you my sunshine. Please wake up💙

BruhItzLucas- we coming down soon to see you guys. I wanna see Alana. Make sure she awake when I get there.💙 stay positive

MaddisonTheGreat- hey at least I can be with you if she dies.😉😍But I do send my best wishes. I don't wish death on anyone. It's hurts me that part of this may be my fault😔😭

Savannah_Banana replying to @MaddisonTheGreat - chill. He isn't going to go straight to you if his girlfriend dies. Like wtf?! Thanks for the good wishes thou!

"Jackson." Aaron says, directing my attention off my phone and putting his in his pocket.

"What." I said annoyed knowing he was going to try and make me go back to the hotel.

"You HAVE to come back to the hotel. Alana will be fine. She has people keeping a very close eye over her and her family will be here tomorrow along with Lucas and Savannah." He said trying to convince me.

I tilted my head side to side and actually thought about it. "Ugh. Fine. I have to see her first though." I said, hating the idea of leaving her.

"They are only going to let you look through the window." Gianni chimed in. "I already tried."

"That's enough for me right now. As long as I can see her I'm fine..." I said as I stood up. "Do you know what room she's in?"

"She's on the 3rd floor in room 57." Gianni replied.

I nodded and we made our way there. Once we got into the elevator I pressed the number 3 to go up to the 3rd floor and we made our way there. As I stepped out the elevator I began to feel nervous. I haven't seen her since the day it happened. I hadn't even bothered to know her room number because it hurt me to much to see her.

"Jackson breath." Alex said quietly from behind me. I nodded and walked along the hallway looking at the numbers.

49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, And 57.

I took a deep breath and looked inside the room threw the glass window. She had wires on her arms attached to her and a breathing mask on her face. She was pale white to the point where you could see her blue veins down her arm and around her face. She was in a white hospital gown, (How they changed her is beyond me) , and had the necklace I gave her around her neck. I smiled sadly knowing she wore it even when we were fighting but also thinking about how much pain she was in.

I sigh, "let's go before I start crying again."

They nodded. Maya rubs my arm in support. I weakly smile at her to let her know I appreciate it and we make our way to Gianni's car, my eyes on the verge of tears. I groan as we reach his car because I didn't want to leave her.

"You will be fine." Maya said.

"It's not me I'm worried about." I muttered but she didn't hear me. I climb in the car and sit in the backseat. While we are driving I play with Rose while Alex play fights with Prince.

When we make it to the hotel I hide Rose in my shirt and put my backpack in front of it so it's not showing and run to the hotel room. I take rose out of my shirt and put her down slamming my body on the bed after.

I'm so done with life right now.

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How are you guys doing today?

I'm okay I guess. There is a lot of drama going on even though it's summer but I'm gonna try and stay happy.

I'm honestly losing my motivation for writing this book but I'm going to try and make it into a series I promise.

I love you all! Bye loves! 💋 😘

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