My Childish Love Story

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from: Mom

I'm so sorry. I already knew about him even before you transferred to that school. It was my plan to make you meet him. Pero I never planned na ma inlove ka sa kanya. I was expecting you to crush him like what you always told me. But I was mistaken. That really proves how different we are when making some decisions in life

Akala ko marerecognize mo sya agad from the last time you saw him. But, oh well. You were 5 at that time. Di ko nga ineexpect na magtatanim ka ng galit in that age. Pero mas di ko naman ineexpect na miinlove ka in this age

I think mabuti syang tao para maging mabuti ka sa kanya, you even liked him. Or should I say 'love'? Well, I don't don't exactly what happened. It's alright for me if you will continue your relationship with him if you really love him. It's totally fine. I realized na wala syang kasalanan sa mga nangyari dati. So, do you still want to come here with us?

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ANO BANG KLASENG REPLY YAN?! Okay lang? Anong okay dun? Incest lang ba ang trip nito?

So it was all her plan? And she wanted me to crush him? BAKIT DI NYA SINABI NG MAAGA?! Para naman di ako nababaliw ng ganito diba?

Continue our relationship? Eh di nagkasala naman ako? Ayoko ng mga tipong "It's you and me against the world" noh!

Pinipilit ko na nga tanggapin na kapatid ko sya eh! Bakit ba kasi ako talaga linipat sa Lily Academy? Akala ko ba ang reason ay para malayo ako sa mga EX bandmates ko? Siguro isa yun sa dahilan. Pero WTF? Pinalipat nya ako para makilala ko yung kapatid ko sa labas? WHAT A VERY NICE REASON!

Dahil dyan nagkagulo buhay ko

Bullshit -_-

Ang gulo gulo gulo gulo na ng isip ngayon. Nagsisisi na ako na tinanong ko si mom tungkol dun. Lalo ako naguluhan.

If only I didn't break up with Xander

If only I loved him and didn't looked for someone else

If only I asked him to love me truthfully without pretending anymore

If only I didn't entered the SC room

If only I didn't transfer to that school

REGRETS...

Should I even regret it? Naging masaya din naman ako.

Pero kung ang kapalit naman ng mga yun ay yung paghihirap ko ngayon, mas gugustuhin ko na maging malungkot para atleast constant. Ayoko ng up tapos biglang bagsak. Parang roller coaster lang?

Nakakahilo yung paikot ikot.

How can I forget about him if he became a part of me already? Yes, for only a short period of time I became attached to him already. Or is it because of the blood that runs through us? Lukso ng dugo lang? Kadiri naman! Kinikilabutan ako sa pinagsasasabi ko

GUSTO KO NANG PUMUNTA SA JAPAN!

GUSTO KO NA TUMAKAS SA PROBLEMA NA TO!