Black Roses

chapter five (the walk pt.2)

  I start my daily routine like I do every day.  Taking almost my usual hour. I get done a little late knowing that it's okay to miss the bus.
  I step outside as I'm approached by Liam. "You actually showed up." I smile.
  "I'm a man of my word." Liam smiles back. I was glad and somewhat surprised he showed up.  We start our walk to school as I look at my house behind me multiple times making sure my mom wasn't looking at me.  If she saw me walking with a somewhat good looking guy, she would either one: have a cow. Or two: ask about my boyfriend a million times. I knew I was planning on asking Liam personal questions, so I knew avoiding the road was a good option. I take Liam to my neighbor's yard showing him a little trail I made that leads to the weird swamp under the school. The sun wasn't exactly risen yet so it was somewhat a burden to walk through the trail. I look at the long straight line of trees and a never-ending pathway.
  "If I run with you on my back again it will save us ten minutes and we can talk for a half an hour."
  "I understand that its quicker but I'm afraid I'll break your back." Witch was just the honest way I felt since I'm not the skinniest girl.
  "When I carried you yesterday it was like having a towel on my back. So you weight practically nothing to me. Just jump on its really nothing." Liam bends down again for me to toss myself on his back. Jumping on, Liam grunts a little, which hurts me physically and emotionally leaving me to question. "Was he lying when he said I didn't weight a lot?" "Did he think I was fat?" "Was I hurting his back?" Liam didn't say anything and just continued to run the endless track of trees. We stop under a hill before the school is in eyesight, I try sitting down in a pile of grass when Liam stops me takes his flannel off and places it under me. I sit, but I feel uncomfortable. Liam sits next to his flannel putting about a foot apart from us.
  Liam breaks the distant silence between us. "Okay, what do you want to know."
  "Are you kidding me?" I almost yell at his stupidity. "Did you forget about what I asked yesterday, I'm seriously not asking much I just wanted to know-"
  Liam cuts me off, "know why I didn't kill you like I did with the woman next to us."
  "Yeah exactly," I say calming myself down.
  Liam sighs "It's complicated."
  "You told me you would tell me the truth when you got the chance so here's your chance when I get the truth I'll leave it alone. Okay?"
  "It's not that, I w-what would you call me?" He stutters out saying.
  "You mean, like what you are?" Liam nods his head in agreement.  "I don't really know I mean my first thought was a vampire... But I, they, they don't exist."
  "Well, you're wrong because that's exactly what I am." I don't say anything, I just look at him. How it's it possible and why is he the only vampire I've met up until now. Why does it have to be a secret?
  "So then why didn't you kill me."
  "Again I said it's complicated, I can't really explain a lot, as a vampire I can lose control of what I'm doing and my own body. Everything's is black and I can't see anything. It's like a battle that I usually lose. But in your case, your crying somehow triggered me and I bought my self. I knew that if I hadn't yelled at you to run away I would have killed you then and there in a snap." I still couldn't bet toner the fact that Liam really was a vampire and that he has to fight himself.
  "Is it hard controlling yourself?" I pull my hair behind my ear.
  "Only when I'm tempted by something." Liam takes his eyes off my face and lowers them. At first, I thought he was staring at my boobs or my cleavage, but then I noticed that he was staring at my neck. I pull my hair back over my neck covering myself.
  "Does anyone at school know about you?" I ask.
  "No, I promised myself not to tell anyone and it's not hard to because I don't make friends. Unfortunately for you, your one of the first people besides my father how knows about me."
  "Are you gonna kill me? Because I know about you?"
  "Are you going to keep stereotyping me,  just because I'm weird?"
  "I wasn't I was just asking." I feel myself shake as Liam's eyes stare into mine as if there a black hole.
  "Abby, out of all the schools I've been to,  I've seen the same look on everyone's face. They all think I'm some weird kid who's gonna shoot up the school. It's always the same and I can see it in your eyes right now, so stop stereotyping me." He suddenly ends up close to me and I change my look to a worried emotion.
  I know how Liam feels, I get the same look from people around school and I even get anonymous text messages from people asking if I plan to bomb the school.
  "I didn't mean to stereotype you, I swear. I do it to everyone because I make myself hate them before they can get close to me and corrupt me." Our bodies are inches apart, I don't even know how it happened. It just did. For some reason, I start looking up and down over Liam, I didn't see it before but he's...cute? I swear I almost see a sparkle and his dark mysterious eyes. I feel my face turn bright red feeling lost in the galaxy starring at him. So I quickly look at his flannel under me. The sun making the sky a smoky orange color Liam backs up from me and stands up.
  "I think I should leave," Liam says, I sat and up brushing the bits of dirt off his flannel and give it back to him.
  "Do you have to?" I ask wanting our conversation to continue.
  "I don't its safe for me to be around you Abby, I answered your questions like you wanted and that should be the end of this." I look at him and see the pain in his eyes.
  "Your fighting yourself over this." I saw still trying to get him to stay, not knowing what we'd even talk about, for just some reason I want him to stay.
  "I am not, I seriously think it's best if we don't speak ever again." He slowly starts to walk towards the school.
  "You can't just avoid me forever, I know your secret." Liam suddenly stops and turns around with an angry expression
  "Are you trying to fucking blackmail me right now?" He raises his voice stepping back over to me.
  "No, I just. Just."
  "Just what?!"
  I stutter, "I just wanna know more about you."
  "So you threatened me with blackmail. Look Abby, all I can say is I'm sorry for hurting you, and I feel the only way to avoid that again is leaving you and letting you live at peace without me." I look down starring at the weeds in the dirty grass surrounding my feet, I don't fight him anymore. If he doesn't want me in his life I won't force myself into it. It's not new for me to be pushed away even by someone I'm not even sure I like.
  "Then go, I don't care." I watch Liam walk away to the school and I sit back down waiting for the school bell to ring.

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THANK YOU DAISY FOR REMINDING ME TO UPDATE.
I honestly don't have an excuse except that I was to lazy to write anything since it is summer vacation for me.😂 anyway I hope to update rather quickly so I can finish my webtoon for the book since each page takes almost seven hours to create and ill be posting it in October.