Mystified Musing's

Yesterday and Tomorrow

I know that it doesn't mean much, especially to someone with the opinion of drugs that you have, but while I was lockup, I made a vow to myself, and to God. I swore that I would never touch a drug that wasn't given to us by the earth, by the Lord. I swore that I would never again be the person that I was for so long. I meditated for hours on end, every day, I prayed for hours on end every night. Every day, every night, I learned more about myself, about my love for life, for you, for existence. It may not make sense to you, or it may make more sense than I myself can make of it, but I don't want to live for the moment in the same sense as I have in the past. I've decided that the best moments in life, the moments I've been wanting, can only come from living for the future moments. Each moment that I live in the present, needs to be something that will create a moment that's better than if I were to life for just this moment. Everything I do to build for the future, will make the moments better and better, getting more enjoyable with each moment until I'm ready to die. I made a choice to live for the future, that I may relish each moment more when it happens