LYSSOPHOBIA

11 - Falling

When I said I was in a brink of a cliff, I was standing there contemplating whether to jump or not. I cant see the bottom but I wonder what its like falling and falling endlessly.

"Why didn't you accepted it when Ras invited you to Cast Dispatcher?"

After putting a bandage to his wound, I didn't expect Colin would stay longer. Not that I was hoping though but somehow I was glad he didn't leave just yet.

"I don't need companions to kill."

"But its better than being alone."

"I don't really like people."

"That's why you kill?" There's no hiding the curiosity in his tone.

I didn't answer. He opens his lips but closes it again.

"You wanna know what's keeping me real company?"

He brings out something shiny in his pocket. And then I realize what it was. "That's an illegal drug."

"Crystal Meth." He then started to huff.

I could see smokes forming clouds and vague shapes in the air. I watch him inhale and exhale and play with the smoke with his mouth and how his expression change into satisfaction.

"Do you want a taste?"

I didn't know how to respond but something is pushing me and I know I should be declining, however, its not so bad trying something beyond for once. I inhale the thing slowly, savoring the unexpected sweetness, then inhaled some more.

"That's my girl." Colin was laughing.

I was getting dizzy before I knew it. My vision are blurry and I see lights, neon lights and rainbow, and thick smoke and I feel like falling; my body is dispersing, my mind has pop into thin air and I was defied by gravity. I feel like vomiting but I cant, my esophagus is filled with fog and my legs felt like jumping but I fail.

Instead I found myselft on top of Colin's lap.

"Feel on cloud nine yet?"

I try to focus on his voice but all I could hear were the voices inside my head. They were pumping, screaming, fussing, laughing and crying.

And I crash my lips to him. I kiss Colin fully, deeply and I squeeze my eyes shut, closing the area where I could hear the voices and detouring a world where Colin and I are the only one breathing.

I feel him kissing me back while lifting me to rest properly on his lap. He suck my tongue, brought my bottom lip between his mouth and I was losing my mind.

It was a hot steamy make out and I feel ecstatic.

He unattach his lips for a second only to inhale on the drug again. I snatch it away and began huffing it too. He was laughing so hard and so do I. Its like we were enticed and we couldn't stop.

"This is magic." I whisper on his lips.

His hand crawled beneath my shirt as he attack my lips again.

"You are magic to me."