"Hey Niall" I said into the phone. "I just wanted to call to see how you were doing?" "Uh, im fine. You?" "Im good. Did louis talk to you yet?" I froze. Did he know? No he couldnt , how would he have found out, it just happened, or was this about last night. "Talk about what?" "About tomorrow?" My heart started beating again. Thank god! "Um, no what is it?" "Oh, nothing, I will let louis tell you later." "Uh okay, Niall but is there something you want to tell me?" "Uh why would you ask .." He sounded jittery, there was something that he was hiding. Wait, I shouldn't be judging people about hiding stuff. I am hiding quite alot from him. I am such a horrible girlfriend. "Niall, I just cant wait to see you. I need to get away and just be with you!" "Uh, yeah me too Sydney" uh? What was going on?" I just miss you Niall" "I miss you too Sydney, well I gotta go, see you" "See you. I love you Niall" "I love you too Sydney. Bye" and then he hung up. I got up off the floor and looked through the peep hole. Jacob was gone. Thank goodness! I was so confused right now. I kissed Niall, Louis, Ryan, Jake and Harry in only a couple months! What is wrong with me. The only boy I should be kissing is Niall. I made my way to the kitchen and grabbed a snack. I went upstairs and locked the door to louis' room.
A few hours later, someone knocked on the door. "Its dinner time" It was Julia. "Im not hungry" "Open this door now, because there must be something wrong with you." I laughed and opened the door. She immediatly touched my head. "Your not hot so whats wrong? You always eat! Always!" I laughed and pushed her off of me. "Nothing jules, just please. I wanna be alone." "Yeah for sure and I heard about Jake." I smiled and pushed her out the door. I dropped myself back on the bed. I watched three movies and ignored all the knock and yells on the door. I looked at the clock. 11:35. "Sydney can you please open up the door?" Louis said. "Nope" I said simply. "Please!" "Nope. " "But its my room, you cant lock me out of my own room!" I got up and opened the door. "Finally" Louis said smiling at me. I wasnt smiling. "Fine, you want in here so bad, I will be on the couch" I said as I stomped passed louis and went downstairs. Louis didnt come after me. I was kinda sad but I was also happy. I laid on the couch with no pillows or blankets.
"Whats wrong sweetie?" I turned around and there was Mrs. Tomlinson. "Oh, nothing, just kinda need to be by myself" "Oh, okay. You wanna talk?" "Not really, thanks for asking though" She went into the kitchen and came back a few minutes later with a cup of hot chocolate. "Here, have a good night sweetie" "Thanks" I said as I took a small sip of the drink. I put it on the table and just sat there. It was kinda nice to just sit and think. I had a lot to think about. Then I saw Lottie coming down the stairs. "Hey hun" She said as she tok a seat next to me. "How you holding up?" "Who am I kidding? I'm a mess Lottie" "Why dont you start from when I walked out the door?" I laughed. "Okay, well when you left I went upstairs to get dressed when louis blindfolded me and took me outside. He turned on the sprinklers and we played in the front yard until the paps came and ruined my fun. I went to the store and saw jake. We talked and he kept bugging me to come home. I said no. He kept knocking on the door. I came home crying. I was crying into louis chest. He got up and made me a pizza when I was done crying. I told him thanks for being there for me and instead of saying anything, he leaned in and kissed me" I took a deep breath. I didnt want to relive it. "And it wasnt like last night. Last night was soft and a quick. Just a peck. On the couch today it was passionate and rough. But the worst part is that I didnt stop it. I have a boyfriend Lottie, and I am kissing louis. I kissed him back." "Oh keep going." "Okay, then you walked in we broke apart. Jake ran the doorbell I opened it. He basically told me to come home again. I said no and shut the door. He kept knocking so I opened it again and he just looked at me and kissed me" "oh dear!" "Yeah but I didnt kiss him back. When he pulled away, I saw he was crying. I couldnt stand to see him hurt so I closed the door. He went away after that. Then as if it were timed Niall called. We just talked. he said louis had something to tell me tonight" "and what was that" "I dont know. He didnt tell me anything" "Oh darling. Your life is just in a pickle!" I started crying. "Sorry im so emotional" Lottie laughed and hugged me tighter. "Its okay" After a while she said she needed sleep and that we could talk more tomorrow. She went upstairs. I laid down but didnt go to sleep.
