crushing on you.

Understanding<3 x

"Yeah..........." I answered curiously. "we...well...umm I um kinda have been crushing...umm...on you for ages now." he said going red in the cheeks. I blushed! A lot! "I kinda have a crush on you too." I said going even more red than usual. We both smiled feeling nervous about what has happened next.

"well ummmm...do you want to go out with me...?" he asked. I blushed even more and smiled..."uummm......yeaah" he smiled so big I couldn't describe it. I smiled to and we both looked into eachothers eyes. Getting lost again...we leaned in closer not realising what was happening. We leaned in closer and closer and the butterflies where getting stronger and stronger. I blushed and turned away again "sorry, I'm really not ready yet I'm really sorry! Because this only just happened and all. I'm sorry I'm just really really nervous."

"it's okay I completely understand and to be honest I'm kind of really nervous myself!" he smiled and blushed nervously.

"okay we'll do you want me to help you with guitar now? Since that is what your here for. Haha!" he smiled and we picked up the guitars and stood up of his bed. "okay so this finger goes here..." and her pointed to where I was supposed to put my fingers. "I still don't get it." I said embarrassed. "okay let me show you." he said putting down his guitar and came and stood behind me. He stood extreemly close with his body against mine. He put his arms around me and placed my fingers on the guitar again, just like he did in class. He took my other hand and strummed the ends of the strings. I turned my head around and looked into his eyes. Our eyes locked and we meant in closer and closer. It just felt so right yet I was so nervous with the butterflies circling in my stomach. I don't know what to do. Wether I should pull away again or wether I should just kiss him. I know I want him to be my first kiss but I'm not sure wether I'm ready or not. I didn't know what to do and we got closer and closer and I didn't know what to do.

I pulled away again not knowing wether I would regret it or not. "I really am really really sorry! I just don't know wether I'm ready or not I'm just not sure! I definately want my first kiss to be with you but I don't know wether I'm ready for it or not!" I said feeling really bad now that I have led him on and pulled away. "it's seriously okay! I'll be ready when your ready, like I told you i really like me and I don't know wether I'm ready for It or not either but when you are ready I will be ready too." he promised. I was so thankful to have a guy so great! "thankyou!" I said. We finished playing the guitar and sat down to watch a movie. About half way through the movie he put his arm around me and when his fingers touched my shoulder it felt tingly. But a good kind of tingly. He asked me for my phone again so he could change his name again. I handed him my phone and he edited his contact again. He made is name 'cameron my babe of a boyfriend<3' and then handed it back. I looked at it and laughed! "well it's true!" he said in the middle of laughing haha!

The movie finished and I called my mum at 5 to come and pick me up. She texted me when she was out the front and we got up from the couch and walked over to the door. I thanked him for having me over and for being so understanding and he gave me a hug and kissed me on the cheek. He blushed when I smiled at him and he looked so cute! "bye Cameron my babe of a boyfriend! Haha!" we both laughed and I walked out the door! I was half way down his driveway when he yelled out "I'll call you!" I smiled and turned around and yelled out "yeah okay talk to you then!" I got in my car and we drove home.