crushing on you.

The worst fuckingg surprise ever!

After the day at the beach Cameron, Matt, Jess and I decided we would all go down the street to one of the restaurants. We all went back and got showered and dressed. I put on my plain black leggings and my white button up long sleeve triangle color blouse. I put on my black wedged heels and grabbed my white wallet and phone. Jess was wearing her black tube skirt and her cream coloured knit. We walked out of our bedroom and out of the cabin where Matt and Cameron where already waiting for us. We walked down the steps outside the cabin and started to walk around the corner and down the street. Jess and I where walking in the middle and Cameron and Matt on the outside. Cameron rubbed his hand slowly down my arm and held my hand as we walked into the restaurant. We walked in and sat at a booth for four. We ordered our meals and finished them. We all walked back to the cabins and sat on the beach. We just sat there talking for ages and watching the waves crash down on the pale soft sand. We stayed up all night just sitting on the beach talking and then we watched the sun rise together. When the sun was up and it came to around 7:30 Cameron took me around the corner to a cafe for breakfast. He had the biggest smile on his face. We ate breakfast together and then went back to the cabins and got some sleep finally.

We slept until 12:30 and then woke up in time for lunch. For lunch everyone went to shell beach and ate their food their because the teachers thought we needed more exercise. So we all walked down there and ate together. When we where finished everyone walked back to the cabins. Jess and I grabbed out wallets and decided to go shopping. We walked around the corner and looked in all of the shops. We went into Bardôt and I bought a pink no sleave triangle collar gold buttoned shirt. We finished shopping and went back with about ten bags each. There where so many amazing cheap shops there! We went down to the beach again wearing the new swimmers we bought. I bought a hot pink triangle bikini with layered frills and Jess bought the same but in purple. We went for a quick swim and then walked over to McDonalds in our swimmers to get an ice-cream. We ate whilst we walked back and then we went back into the cabins and both had a hot shower each. We came out of our room when we where changed and sat down on the grass outside with hot chips to share and a drink each. We layed down on the grass and talked for about an hour. We finally got up and went back inside and it was 6:00 we gathered everyone and we decided on nandos for dinner. So Jess and I went down to nandos with everyone's orders and we brought them all back to the cabin. We all sat down as a huge group and ate our dinner. After dinner I was so tiered I went straight to bed. And Jess stayed up for ages talking to Matt in the lounge room and then when she finally got to bed they where texting even though they where only a few rooms away. In the middle of the night we where all woken up by Jades scream. Everyone rushed over to her room and saw she was pinned against the wall because there was an ant on the ground. One of the guys stepped on it and we all went back to bed.

The rest of the week just seemed to fly by, it finally came to Friday and all of the buses came. We all got on a bus and went back to the school where we were picked up by our parents. Jess' mum dropped me home because mum was out and dad was at work. I opened the door with my pink floral house key and stepped inside turning on the lights because for some reason all of the blinds where shut. "SURPRISE!" mum and dad yell as they jump out from behind the couch. "what?...what's going on?...what's all of this for...?" I asked feeling very confused. "Dad got a new job in Queensland so we are all moving up to the gold coast!" she said trying to make some of her enthusiasm enter me. "WHAT! NO! JUST AS EVERYTHING GOES RIGHT FOR ONCE WE HAVE TO PACK UP AND MOVE AGAIN! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING RUIN MY LIFE!" I screamed at them. I ran up the stairs crying and cried myself to sleep even though it was only 3:30. I didn't answer my phone or Facebook or anything over the weekend and went to school on Monday with panda eyes. Jess ran up to me when I got dropped of at school, because she could see I had been crying and had barely any sleep which was true. "oh my gosh! Ash! What's wrong?" she asked worryingly. "dad got a new job! So that means we have to fucking pack up and move again! We have to move to the gold coast and mum won't let me stay here with nan or even aunty Jill! I haven't spoken to mum or dad since they dumped this shit on me when I got home on Friday!" I said trying to hold back the tears. She looked shocked. She stepped back. "are you being serious?" she asked looking upset. "I wish I was only kidding but I'm not!" I said with my voice all shaking. We walked of to class both of us in shock. I handed the teacher a letter from my parents saying I will be leaving the school at the end of next week so I won't be able to attend her class anymore. She looked up at me in a confused way. "oh thats a shame." she said. "yeah." I said as I walked over to my seat and sat down. We walked outside after wards and went to our second period class. I handed the teacher my note about not being able to attend her class anymore and she looked at me in a sad sort of way and I sat back down at my desk.

The bell finally rang for first break and we walked outside where we met Cameron and Matt. We walked around the school and I wasn't talking. Matt and Jess where walking in front and I was walking beside Cameron. He could tell something was up because I wasn't talking. Well that and my tear stained face and baggy eyes. So he grabbed my hand and pulled me back making me stop. I was staring at the ground and he lifted my chin up with his soft fingers. He looked into my eyes and smiled. "what's wrong?" he asked. He pulled me across to the seat and we sat down. He grabbed my hands and squeezed them tight. "okay. Come on now tell me what's wrong?" I tried to talk but it was too hard to do it without crying. I didn't want to cry in front of him. "dad....he umm..." I was trying my best to talk but my eyes where swelling up. "umm...he got...a new job" I said with the tears slowly starting to fade away. "that's not so bad though!" he said trying to make me feel better. "yeah but it's in the gold coast." I said almost crying again. But I held it back. He looked shocked he didn't say anything he just sat there for 5 minutes in silence. "we always have to pack up and move whenever dad gets a new job it sucks because finally everything was turning out right this time and now this happens..." I said taking a deep breath. He still hadn't spoken yet and I was getting worried. He burrows his face in his hands and sat there for another 5 minutes. He sat back up and looked onto my eyes. "when are you leaving?" he asked. "end of the week." I replied he looked sad. The bell rang and we got up and walked back to class. The next few days went so fast. It had already come to thursday night and I knew I only had one day left. I was at home packing my things when there was a knock on the door. I walked down the stairs and looked through the windows beside the door. It was cameron. What's he doing here I though to myself. As soon as I opened the door before I could say or do anything he straight out leans in and kisses me on the lips. Our lips lock and our eyes close. We stand there kissing for about 5 minutes and then we both pull away. "I'm really going to miss you when you leave Ashley!" he said sounding sad. "I'm going to miss you too." I said smiling at him whilst looking into his dark blue eyes. He kissed me again and I came outside shutting the door behind me.

"come and help me pack?" I asked so we could spend more time together. "sure." he said with a smile. We walked inside. "mum my friends here and they are going to help me pack" I yelled out to mum. She didn't answer so we went up into my room and I closed the door behind me. I had boxes everywhere and he helped me wrap up all of my photo frames and jewelry boxes in bubble wrap and then we put them into the big ugly brown boxes. I pulled out one draw at a time and I tipped it into a box labeled clothes. Occasionally like every 10 minutes or so he would pin me against the wall and he would kiss me for a few minutes. Then we would both pull away smile and continue packing my things for a while. We packed for ages until about 7 that night when his mum came and picked him up. We ate dinner after he left and then I packed up the rest of my room and went to bed. The next day at school was sad because it was my last day everything was tried by a lot of people to make it good. I walked into school and I was surrounded by friends giving me presents and balloons and cards. Cameron came up to me and gave me a huge kiss. Jess was by my side the whole day and all of my teachers tried to make my last day my best day. The whole day was great and so much fun. But when the bell rang for the end of school everything became dull. Jess and I both went fully quiet and went looking sad. We walked over to the bus stop and stood there hugging for a while. "I promise we will pay for a plane ticket for you to come and visit!" I said to Jess. She nodded her head and smiled.

Behind Jess Cameron came over. He walked up to me and Jess. He came over to me and straight away put his arms around my waist and kissed me. It was the best kiss we ever had because we both knew it would be our last. I hopped on my bus when it came and Jess was with me. We both got of and when we got to the end of my street none of us wanted to leave. We said our goodbyes and walked away sadly. I walked in the door dumping my school bag in my last box and taping it up. Mum told me to eat quickly and then I will have one hour until we have to leave for the airport. I ate some of the foods that where In the cupboard just some biscuits left over from subway and a packet of two minute noodles. It finally came to the time we had to leave and I didn't want to go. We walked out to the car and all got in. We drove all the way to the Sydney airport and went through customs. We sat in the waiting area for about half an hour and then we boarded our plane. The trip was way too long and is all I could think about was Cameron and Jess and all of my friends that I left behind. Everything was gone. I had nothing left and I had to start all over again. Why does everything have to freaking suck so much in my life. Everytime I am finally happy with my life and something good happens we always have to pack up and move again. FML.