Star Wars: The Jedi Twin

Ch: 21

Qui-Gon, Obi wan, Anakin, and I were all standing in front of the Jedi Council. Anakin was taking a sort of test, one that would tell the council if he was force sensitive or not. Master Windu held a sort of data pad, which then displayed a picture on it. Anakin would then haft to say what the picture was without looking at it. So far, he was getting them all right.

"...a cup, a speeder, a ship, a ball, a cup, a ball, a speeder, a ship, a ship." Anakin tells them.

Master Windu does something to the data pad before turning back to Master Yoda. I'm guessing that he turned it off seeing as how their isn't a light that emits from it anymore.

"Hmm... how feel you?" Master Yoda asks Anakin.

"Cold, sir." Anakin tells him.

"Afraid, are you?" Master Yoda asks him.

"No, sir." Anakin tells them. Although I can feel that that's a partial lie, although I can also feel that he's trying to put on a brave face.

"See through you, we can." Master Yoda tells Anakin.

"Be mindful of your feelings..." Master Windu tells Anakin.

"Your thoughts dwell on your mother." I heard Ki-Adi speak up.

"I miss her." Anakin replies.

"Afraid to lose her... I think, hmm?" Master Yoda tells Anakin.

"What's that got to do with anything?" Anakin says, his voice as well as his force signature is laced a little with anger.

"Everything!" Master Yoda exclaims. "Fear is the path to the dark side...fear leads to anger...anger leads to hate...hate leads to suffering...I sense much fear in you."

And that's why we aren't supposed to form attachments. I thought to myself. Even though I've never really got that, and just how does fear lead to anger? So you just hate yourself for being afraid, or do you hate those around you for not helping you with your fear or do you just hate your fear for making you weak? I've never quite really understood that.

After a few moments of silence, Ki-Adi says, "The Force is strong with him."

"Is he to be trained then?" Qui-Gon asks the council. The council looks to each other as if talking to one another.

"No." Master Windu speaks up. "He will not be trained, he is too old."

Too old? I asked myself. He's just a year older than I was when they first found out I was force sensitive. I thought to myself. "If I may." I spoke up. "He's only a year older than I was when you first found out I was force sensitive."

"Bring up a valuable point, she does." Master Yoda speaks up. "Unfair, it would be."

"She taught herself for the most part." Master Windu says. "It was either let her fall to the dark side or closely watch after her as she completed her training."

I rolled my eyes as some of the other Masters spoke of me like I wasn't even in the room. As if they didn't even have an audience, and it bothered me. I don't care if they spoke of me like this when I couldn't hear them but it's hurtful to talk like this in front of me when I could hear every word they spoke. So I just up and walked away, and towards the chamber doors.

"We didn't dismiss you!" One of them called back, I couldn't make out whose voice it was.

"Let her go, you must. About her, this meeting is not." I heard Master Yoda say just before I closed the doors behind me.

As I ran threw the halls, I felt everyone's eyes on me. They were constantly watching me, Master Windu's words echoed threw my head. They only let me in so I wouldn't fall to the dark side? Why didn't they tell me this before? Why did they keep this a secret. I felt hurt, betrayed. I soon found myself at the doors of my room. Once I was inside the room, I closed and locked the door of my room before flopping down onto my bed.

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After a few minuets have passed, yet it felt like hours, I heard someone knocking on my door. "Go away!" I yelled at them, not even bothering to see who it was. Yet I could feel that they where still at the door, and they knocked again. "I said to leave!" I yelled yet again. I could feel the hate in my voice as I yelled at them. Well, I guess anger could lead to hate.

"Not in the mood to talk?" I heard a familiar voice say.

"No!" I yelled. "Now leave."

"Not until you tell me why you ran out of the council's room." I heard them say.

I closed my eyes and calmed myself down until I reopened them and used the force to open the door. I sat up on the bed once the door opened fully to reveal a very curious looking Obi wan. He came and sat down next to me on my bed and stroked my back.

"What was that all about?" Obi wan asked me, referring to when I ran out of the council's room.

"Didn't you hear them? The way they talked about me?" I asked him.

"The way Master Windu talked about you and then was scolded by Master Yoda once you left?" Obi wan asked me. "Half of the council agreed with how he said things but the other half didn't agree with saying those things in front of you."

"That's not what I heard." I told him. "Everyone but Yoda where talking in agreeance with Master Windu." I told him.

"They may have agreed with what he was saying but not with saying it in front of you." Obi wan tells me. "Besides, Master Yoda wishes to speak to you."

"And he sent you as a messenger?" I asked him. "That's why your here?"

"I would've come to check on you wheither they sent me to or not." Obi wan tells me.

"Then why did they send you?" I asked him.

"Because I would've come to check on you wheither or not they sent me." Obi wan tells me.

"I guess I've gotta go see what Master Yoda wants." I told him as I got up from my bed and left the room.