Tough Love (BMTH&BVB FanFiction)

Chapter twenty one: Goodbye

After what seemed like forever we reached the building with a growing fear that she was already gone, without hesitation all five of us lept from the van and darted inside the tall building that towered over us. Panting, we sprinted up the stairs hoping that we wern't too late.

We reached the top and there she was. Her hair blowing ever so gentley in the wind as she screamed with her fists up to the sky. Her words crumpled my heart like paper. I knew she was hurting but she had never really expressed her pain. That was how she felt. That moment right there, that moment showed her true colours. As she screamed and cried out in pain you could tell that she was trapped. Trapped in a cage with depression and a million and one other demons that were just trying to drain every ounce of hope, happiness and faith she had. For so long she tried to break out of the cage, but the harder she tried the harder her demons gripped onto her. Squeezing and refusing to give up until she had no energy left to fight, until she surrendered to the darkness. All her fight was gone, the demons had won.

I turned around to look at the others, Ashley gave me a nod, ushering me to go towards her. I felt my heart beating out of control, what if I couldn't save her?

I love her, I love her so so much and I was literally a step from losing her forever. Tears welled up again, the tears I had tried so hard to fight back down on the way here, they had come back and they wern't leaving any time soon.

I had no idea what to say, so I did all I could, I spoke the words in my heart...

~Ally's POV~

There I stood, on the edge. I breathed deeply, staring down upon the cold hard ground that would soon become my death bed. I was filled with growing rage, but that didn't matter. I didn't have to be angry anymore... As I stood there, so close to death, so close to an escape, I could feel the demons inside me laughing. Taunting me, reminding me of my weakness. They had finally done it, they had pushed me over the edge and now I was literally going over the edge, I was too weak to fight and they loved it. I thought of how things could have been so different.

I slipped into a daydream...

"Hey, kiddo! How's things with Andy?" Oli laughed as he elbowed me. We sat with his band in the tour bus, laughing, joking, smiling.

"Great, thank you very much." I nudged him back and the others laughed. We were on warped tour, that's how I met Andy and that's how we fell in love. I smiled.

I snapped out of it, I would have loved for things to be like that. To just stay friends with Jona, to continue living with my brother and his band, to have a normal relationship with Andy but it all had to go down a road of tradgedy and dispare. And I was in the middle of it all.

"Is this what you wanted?" I screamed out, fighting back tears that threatened to fall.

"Well? Is this what you fucking wanted, God? Did you want me to end this way? Did you want to rip me apart completely and lure me into thinking everything was going to be okay before shoving me back into the darkness. IS THIS WHAT YOU FUCKING WANTED?" I screeched as loud as I could, pushing hard to try and exhale the rage and seething anger that had boiled up inside me. The wind blew harder against my pale face and then, I heard his voice.

"Don't do it Ally." He whispered gentley. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up as I heard his voice.

I turned to face him. There he was, tears streaking his cheeks, hand extended, inviting me to come away from the edge. My heart pounded in my chest...

"Andy..." I whispered, refusing to move a step. Behind him were the guys, they all looked at me with desperation.

"Just come to me, Ally" Andy pleaded, choking slightly as he spoke the words.

"CC I told you not to come for me!" I cried, snivling like a small child being told off by their mother. I felt so pathetic.

"I don't want to let you go, none of us do. We won't give up on you that easy. You're like my little sister, you're a big part of my life now. All of our lives. We can't lose you when you've made it this far with us. I promise we'll make it all better, I promise." CC tried to smile, the attempt was weak but as he did it I felt something... I felt warmth. It was like a symbol of hope, false hope might I add.

"We believe you, we love having you around. We don't want to lose you. Not now, not ever." Jake exclaimed in a calm voice, a soothing voice. But I wasn't going to listen, I was here for a reason and I was going to stick by it.

Andy cautiously edged closer towards me, I could clearly see the desperation in his eyes, and it killed me. I shuffled back with a gasp as I almost fell back.

"No!" Andy yelled, still moving closer to me. I regained by balance.

I stood still, stunned, unable to move.

Andy was so close I could feel his breath on my lips, I wanted a taste of those sweet lips one more time. Just once...

"Andy I love you, you know that." I smiled slightly as I ran my fingers through his hair. He nodded, putting his hands on my waist, he tried to guide me away from the edge but I held firm.

I pressed my lips against Andy's, savouring the flavour, the butterflies, the pounding of my heart. His kiss made me feel so alive, even more so now that I was an inch from death.

I pulled away slowly and glanced up at him, my gaze meeting his.

"I love you all, I love you all so much." I laughed quietly.

For a split second I felt that I could step away from the edge, for a split second I thought there was a tiny shrivle of a chance it could get better. I was wrong, I kissed Andy a second time, knowing I would never feel his touch again I pulled away with tears in my eyes, pushed him away and took a deep breath. With adrenaline pumping through my veins, I knew it was time.

"Angels can fly..." I whispered as I allowed my body to go limp and just fall back over the edge.

And just like that, I was gone.