Tough Love (BMTH&BVB FanFiction)

Chapter sixteen: Hand in hand

~Ally's POV~

I sat down in the chair beside the hospital bed Andy was sleeping in.

"Any sign of him waking up?" CC asked hopefully as he walked through the door with two coffees in hand. I shook my head with a sigh. CC passed me the coffee and sat down beside me, I felt sick to my stomach as I glanced down at the coffee. I was worried about Andy. The rest of Black Veil Brides burst through the door, all of them panting.

"Hey CC, we got here as soon as we could." Ashley gasped, holding his chest and leaning on the door frame. Ashley glared at me, as did Jinxx and Jake. They were all still annoyed at me, CC had tried his best to stick up for me but it wasn't going anywhere. I ignored them and continued to watch Andy in hope of him waking up.

"What's she doing here?" Jake grumbled. I felt rage take over, I was done with this.

"Look, I'm gonna talk and you will listen to me, okay?" I demanded, everyone looked shocked by this. I continued,

"I didn't go through a shit storm from hell so I could end up being thrown into the falmes again by you lot so unless you guys are going to accept that I did what I did for Andy's benefit I will leave and I will regret nothing." and with that I calmly sat back down beside Andy.

"Where would you go?" Jinxx asked, thoguh it wasn't much of a question, more of him stating the fact that I had no where to go.

"Guess I'll have to go back and live with my brother or if all else fails it looks like I'll be back at home with good old daddy." I replied, trying not to show how affraid I was of it coming to that.

"Ally, you can't." CC sighed, trying to comfort me.

"I can and I will." No one replied to this, the room was silent. With this the boys left the room, I couldn't believe they just left! This was about Andy, not me. Me, CC and Andy were left alone but Andy wasn't even awake yet. I set my coffee down on the floor.

"Just ignore them, okay?" CC smiled, rubbing my knee slightly. I stood up and walked to the door.

"I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be back soon." I attempted a weak smile but failed miserably, it didn't matter though. I left and made my way towards the bathroom, locking myself in the end cubicle and sliding my back against the wall. I slid my hand in my pocket and removed the pencil sharpener blade from it. I pulled up the sleeves to my baggy, knitted jumper and looked down at the bandages. I slowly unwrapped them, trying carefully not to get it caught on any of the stitches. Once it was removed and on my lap I scanned my wrist for a clean place to cut. Nowhere.

"Oh well, new place then." I thought to myself with a shrug. I put the bandage back on and removed my jumper all together, along with my strappy vest top that was underneath. I stood up and looked down at my clean, scarless hips. I hated my hips, they were a nice shape but they were fatty. It was embarrassing to think about. It was a blank canvass, a canvass that I planned to paint with red using a pen of silver. I started, I didn't want to stop.

One cut.

Two cuts.

Three cuts.

Four cuts.

I kept going, the blood slid down my sides and dribbled over the top of my shorts, I quickly grabbed some tissue and made a poor attempt to clean up the blood. It didn't work, so I gave in. I picked up the blade once more, placing the tissue back down and continued to decorate my hips with red. By the time I was finished there was a maze of cuts, there were countless amounts on both hips. I pressed tissue down on both of my sides to stop the bleeding. Eventually it worked, I slipped the blade into my pocket once more and cleaned myslef up, along with the mess I had made.

I slowly made my way back to Andy's hospital bed with little hope fo him being awake. I reached the room and a small smiled managed to form from my lips. Andy was standing there, dressed, smiling. He pulled me into a warm hug and I winced in pain slightly as he pressed against my stomach.

"Where's CC?" I asked, confused as to where he had gone.

"He's gone and signed me out and he left, I was waiting for you. He said he'd rather not be here when you got back, don't know why." Andy replied with concern.

"I was angry with Ashley, Jinxx and Jake."

"Why?" Andy arched an eyebrow in curiosity.

I casually shrugged it off and put my hand out to take his wrist. I unwound the bandage he had on to examine the damage, It wasn't too bad, he may end up with a few scars but nothing major.

"Andy..." I started, I felt guilty, this was my fault.

"Hey, don't you dare. I love you, Ally. It may have had to get this far for me to realise but I know you did that with Jona to help me. I'm sorry I flipped but I really do love you, okay? This wasn't your fault, it was mine." Andy hushed me and I tried to wrap the bandage back round his wrist without hurting him. I smiled, scanned the room to see if anyone was watching and gave him a quick kiss. It was a good feeling, to kiss him again.

"Before we leave..." I muttered before turning around to grab a bandage from the cabanit that was in Andy's ward. Andy looked at me in confusion as I pulled the certain shut.

"Turn around," I smirked as I pulled my jumper and top off. I knew Andy was still watching but it didn't bother me, I wasn't sure how he would react to my hips but aside from that I was happy with this.

"What's that?" Andy pointed to the cuts on both my hips. He ran towards me, I was still in nothing but shorts and my bra but hey, I didn't have a problem with this. He rested both of his hands on either of my hips and brushed them gentley with his thumbs. I breathed in and out slowly as he relaxed me, I could see he was blushing slightly and he glanced up at my chest a few times. I moved his hands away and started to wrap the bandages round my waist so that my hips were covered before slipping my top and jumper back on and leaving the hospital. As we walked away together slowly we held each others hands tightly like it was the last time we would ever see each other. We couldn't kiss in public, but we could hold hands, there was nothing wrong with that and anyway, I was in love and oblivious to the world around me.

*A/N: I'm sorry about rarely updating but I have serious writers block at the moment... sorry! I will get better eventually. If you hate me for it I don't give a banana so hush XD*