Dear B, I couldn't sleep at all last night... well I mean I did sleep for two hours. I passed out at 5 in the morning but I had to get up at 7 to do some stuff. Plus my dad wants me to be up early. Not that he knows that I haven't been sleeping.... Anyways hehe, how are you? What are you doing now? Since you're still on your first week I assume you've gotten you're uniform today. I bet you're disappointed that it's not the blue ones. I know. I was too. But it's not that bad I guess. Have you had a bag nasty yet? If you did I bet you understand now why I say they're disgusting..... I miss you dear. I pray every day and night for you, for me, for everyone. But to be honest I am terrified that I will revert back to who I was.....before you.... will you still want me? Will you still want someone who took steps back while you were gone instead of steps forward? I am worried you will not want me..... I also am petrified that I am reverting back.....I don't want to... not when I've taken so many steps forward......... Other than that, I've been trying to sketch a bit but I can't seem to find anything I actually want to draw. It's too bad as I keep getting the urge to sketch lately. Hopefully I'll find something to sketch out. I didn't visit Tova today. I couldn't. I didn't want to. I don't really sing much to be honest... I listen to music all the time but singing it on my PA system? No I don't do that anymore....I tend to just lay in bed actually. I don't text my friends really anymore. A few days ago Kayla tried to see if I could sleepover but her mom didn't want anyone over that week. Though to be honest I don't think I would've been able to since that was when Tova was in the hospital...... I wish time passed by faster... It feels so god damn slow as I try to get a job and do something productive. But alas to no avail. I might actually have to be a hooters girl. I hope not though... Please keep me in mind hun. I love you with all my body, heart, and soul to life.
Love,
M.Cannon
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