Endless Love [a.i]

Chapter 4

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Hey guys sorry for the late update but here ya go!

Enjoy :) xx

-diana

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Part 4

Diana's P.O.V

I woke up this morning with the ignorance of not knowing what day it was. It's not like if I really cared. I wasn't planning to do anything, anyways. I thought being locked in my room for about four days would matter to someone but apparently it didn't.

My dad hasn't called for about a week now; it's not like it surprises me, I'm kinda use to his abandons.

I been having this feeling deep inside of making the first move and talking to him but... I don't even know. There was this kind of argument with Samantha and I. Which my father wasn't really happy with me.

I don't have a phone, only reason why Jocelyn hasn't called me. I know that she has tried to call my house phone but my mom hangs up on her.

I been thinking of suicide about three days...

I know it's not good but maybe it's the only solution to everything.

To myself.

I feel like a ugly weed growing in a rose garden.

What better why of keeping the rose garden beautiful by exterminating the ugly weed I have become.

I don't have friends... and the only one I have would be so much better without me.

I feel like I make everything worst. Like if I just came to this world to fuck up everybody else is life. I don't deserve to be happy an I don't deserve to have a family, friends, and special the ability of one day knowing what is true love is...

A sudden knock on the door started me and even if I didn't want to see anyone, I got up from my bed an without asking who it was; I opened the door to find the refection of my father.

"Dad?" I said as I couldn't believe he was standing right in front of me. "Darling your mother is not home, c'mon I'll take you out." He said as he showed me a small smile. I didn't feel like going but I really wanted to spend time with my father. I smiled a little as I finally felt like my dad wanted to spend time with me.

"Okay..." I said as I walked back to my bed and got my black pair of converse from under my bed. "Diana? ...Have you gone to school?" My dad asked as he fully entered my bedroom. I shook my head and looked down. "No... Not really." I mumbled. My dad took a seat on the corner of my bed as he looked down at me. "Why not?" He said as he rest his hand awkwardly on my shoulder. I didn't want him to put his arm on my shoulder? I wanted him to hug me tight and actually care for a minute what was going on in my life.

I shrugged as I didn't know what to answer him with. "It's okay darling, you don't have to tell me..." He said as he got up from my bed. I bet he didn't really care, reason why he didn't keep insisting on the topic. I nodded as I too lift myself up from my bed. "Now let's go... Before your mother gets home." He said as he walked towards the door.

I quickly made a high ponytail and grabbed my black sweater that was resting on a chair; that was in my room. "Dad?" I called as I made eye contact with him. "Yes, Diana?" He said as he looked back at me before actually walking out the door.

"Do you know anything about Mikey?" I asked him as my mouth gave a sad smile and looked back to the floor. "He's starting college, soon..." He said as he didn't add anything else. "Oh." I said shortly as I nodded a little and walked out the door.