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Chapter 4 Problems

Carter - I walked home slowly , partially because I didn't want to go home and partially because I wanted to see Elizabeth . I was leaned up against my car pretending to look in a book when she came out . I looked up to see her looking at me . Although , she quickly glanced away blushing . I smiled and continued to climb into my car . She was getting into her car . Man why was I watching her like this .? She was going to think I was a creep . Deciding it was best I put the key in the ignition and drove off . I was home to quick for my liking . I prayed that my dad was knocked out . I walked in the door and shut it quietly . Obviously luck was not on my side . When I tried tip-toeing past him in the living room he called out my name " Carter . Come here . " I slowly backed and made my way towards him . I made sure not to get to close . He looked at me up and down .

" What's wrong with you .? Why do you act so scared to see me .? Yes of course I've done things but they weren't that bad . Just a little punishing . " I was at a loss for words . How could he think that .? ' It was just a little punishment ' well his little ' punishment ' had been beating me up for years .

" I- I don't know . " He wasn't drunk yet but he was seriously on the verge of it . Still observing me he chugged the rest of his drink . Yep , he's about there now . Here it goes .

Elizabeth - I noticed Carter was staring . I wanted so badly to walk over and say something but decided against it . I climbed into my car and watched Carter driving past me . I frowned , I was kind of hoping he would come up to me . But I guess not . I went home not expecting what was coming for me . I raced to my room not even acknowledging my mom and dad . I put in my headphones as I worked on my homework . All of a sudden the door burst open with my mom in tears screaming at me . " You .! It's you .! This is all your fault .! Your dad wants to leave me and it's all your

fault .! " She said proceeding to come closer to me . On instinct I backed up to the wall my bed was pushed up against . " It's always about you .! You , you , you , you .! You never give me and your father enough alone time . I'm sick of it . Sick of you ruining my life , being the cause of all my problems . " I was fighting back tears at this point . She didn't directly pin everything on me all the time . But she did scream at me that I was used to . What I was not used to is 'being the cause of all her problems' . Her words really got underneath my skin . Tears pricking at my eyes threatening to fall out at any given moment . " Worthless piece of shit . " she said before she swung . And when she swung boy did she swing hard . One hit to my right temple . Another to my stomache . Did dad know she did this .? Or did he even care .? It's like he's never around when this happens . She eventually left . But not without doing some damage first . I curled up into the fetal position and quietly bawled my eyes out for the rest of the night .

Carter - After a couple kicks and punches I was released to my room . I wish I had somebody that felt what I felt . Knew what it was like . Someone I could actually have a connection with . Probably never will though . I'm the weird kid with only one friend and a hopeless crush on a girl I'll never have . I felt lost , scared , broke , and overall useless . No one cared about me . Why am I even still here .? I thought as sleep kicked in .

Elizabeth - The next day I woke up looking as terrible as I felt . My stomache felt like a ton of bricks had been dropped on it . And my head had a pounding migraine . I still would rather go to school then stay home though . Isn't that sad .? When you would rather go to school when your sick than stay home .? If you were me you'd understand why I wouldn't want to stay in this wretched place with its horrible memories . I just wish it could go back to the way it was before . Back to when I was 11 years old , carefree with no problems and two parents that loved and cared for me . I slowly got up , got ready , and went to school .

Carter - As I arrived at school the next day I saw Elizabeth . And man did she look like hell . I wonder what happened to her ..

She had a bruise/lump on her right temple . She was ghostly pale while clutching her stomach . I started to walk up to her when her friend showed up that I couldn't remember her name . I went to ask her what's wrong and she flinched . Woah what did I do . I just walked up to her and she flinched .? She looked at me sadness in her eyes but a bright smile on her face . I knew this look all too well . I grabbed her wrist to talk to her in private while her friend latched onto the other one .

Elizabeth - He tried whisking me away but Melanie came to my rescue . Carter looked at me with pleading eyes I knew I couldn't resist . " Mel it's okay . " I said and she dropped my wrist . We walked into some closet thing . At first I was scared and getting claustrophobic so I scooted as far away from him as possible in the tiny room . He threw up his hands " Hey I'm not going to hurt you . I just want to talk . " I relaxed slightly . " You barely know me . What on earth do you have to say .? " I replied . He looked at me with a knowing look in his eyes

" Oh , but I do . Your favorite color is gold hence the color of your notebook . When you blush you put your hair in front of your face to hide it . When your concentrated you look into the distance . You don't wear tennis shoes , only converse , vans , Doc martins . Your shy and don't open up to a lot of people . So I think I have a picture as to who you are . "

I gasped . Wow had he really been that observant . I actually blushed and did the thing while putting my hair in front of my face . It was comforting knowing someone payed that much attention to me .

" See . " he said " There's that blush . " he put his hand under my chin and lifted it up . He started to lean in and I did too .

Carter - I didn't know what I was doing all I thought was that I really wanted to kiss her right then . She pushed away right when our lips were about to touch . " W-what did you want to talk to me about ? " I scratched the back off my neck trying to remember . " I was wondering what's wrong . Like why do you look like you got jumped by some gang . " She looked down at her feet . " Umm it's , it's umm , nothing . It's nothing . " I held her face up to look me in the eye .

" Your lying . " I said . " No , I'm not . Why do you care so much .? "

I thought about that why did I care so much .? " I , I think I like you .? " I said in kind of a question .

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