Elizabeth - I haven't been home in a few days and I know what your thinking that I'm a runaway and blah blah blah . . . But most teenagers don't live in the situation I do . And if they did they would leave too . Me and Carter have been staying in a hotel room . No , we didn't do anything but don't get me wrong I'm not saying I don't want too . I mean I will eventually but I'm just not ready for that kind of relationship intensity . I like him a lot and he cares for me as I do him but it's just not that emotionally invested yet . We've only been here for 3 days not like anyone would miss me anyway . . . Sad I know but it's the truth and I've come to live with it . . Most of the time . Sometimes I'll have these anxiety attacks when I think too much and it'll get really bad . One time it got so bad I couldn't move . I was in my bed struggling to breathe . But the worst part was when . . I can't even think it . Saving me from my thoughts Carter comes out of the shower in only a towel . I was shocked at this because he's been really cautious with me and him being here together . Whenever he got out of the shower he would already be dressed so this is a little bit confusing to me as to why he would do this . " oh sorry sorry , don't look , I just forgot to bring my clothes in there I swear I'm not trying to seduce you . Just agh crap I'm sorry . " I laughed I couldn't help it . He was rambling and it was so cute . He was looking at me now and god , did he look good . I couldn't tear my eyes away . He still had little droplets of water dropping down his six-pack . I couldn't help but think about how amazingly attractive he was . Then look at me . Nothing much to look at , mom once said and I've come to believe that too . Why would Carter want to be with someone like me that was so utterly unattractive she couldn't look at herself in the mirror .? But gosh I have to quit feeling sorry for myself all the time , but I guess that why it stay in my head . Because I didn't want anyone to know what a sad case I was .
" your not a sad case . " Carter said standing directly in front of me . Need I remind you , still in the towel . " I said that out loud .? " I whispered . He put his fingers under my chin , cupping it .
" I wonder all the time what goes on in that pretty little head of yours . You always get this sad look in your eyes . Like , like you've been through so much and I just regret not helping you sooner . I just feel so useless sometimes because I don't know what to do . I just want you to know that I care for you , I want you to know that your not worthless . Your worth so much more than you think . I can think of a million reason why your worth it before you can blink . I l- , I really like you Elizabeth .
Just please stay strong for me . " Was he about to say what I think he was about to say .? He almost used the l word . At least I think unless my minds tricking me into thinking someone actually loves me that way . But somewhere deep down I wanted it to be true .
Carter - My eyes widened as I realize what I was about to say but recovered quickly . If I would have said what I wanted to say things would be completely awkward . I don't think she's ready emotionally for that . She's always so distant and with the little bit she's let me in , I don't want to ruin that . I just have to gain her trust more . Living like she has , i can imagine why she doesn't have much trust left to give out because most of hers has already fell down the drain . Now that she has told me her story as her home situation maybe I should tell her mine . Maybe she'll understand , I mean she's going through some similar things as me . Too soon I dropped my hand that was cupping her chin . I was still in a towel because I just got out of the shower . It was probably making Elizabeth uncomfortable so I pecked her on the cheek , grabbed my clothes and went back into the bathroom . After I changed I came out so we could head over somewhere and get breakfast .
" Are you hungry .? " I asked her .
She shook her head . " look I know you don't like me paying for you but you have to eat and so do I , so let's go . " she whined in protest " but I don't wannnaaaa goooo . " she said while giving me the cutest look , but I wasn't going to let that stop me . I grabbed her hand and pulled her off the reclining chair she was in . " nope . Food time . " we walked over and I opened the door for her . " why thank you . " she said in a southerner accent . I chuckled " Welcome m'lady . "
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Romance" You didn't tell me it was going to be this hard . " " Oh but I didn't say it was going to be easy , but I did say we'd make it didn't I .? " " I can recall , yes . " " Than trust me , I love you . " " Do you mean it .? " " Yes and I'll say it u...
