Notes

Chap. 7 Weekaversary

Carter - It was Friday and pretty much everybody knew about Elizabeth's and I's relationship . A few girls gave a few nasty stares but when I returned a menacing glare they looked away . To sum up this week it has been the best week of my life . Like literally , my life is really was really crappy when I first met her . It's just a lot less crappy now . Still crappy , but not so much . After Monday we hung out some more but we still haven't been to each others houses . She hasn't asked to meet my parents and I could see why . I mean their monsters . So who wants to meet a monster .? Not me but hey their my parents and I'm stuck with them . Whoo lucky me . Not . So Wednesday we hung out at the park . We had a good time , a great time actually . I took her for a moonlit picnic date . And oh my gosh at how much she adored it . When she first arrived her eyes lit up like flashlights in a dark room . Then again on Thursday I asked her to go to the pizza parlor with me . I'm not exactly sure if it was a date but it was just as great as the real dates were . We stayed at the parlor for hours talking and talking about the most random things . It was quite enjoyable . I think it's great that we don't have to be kissing or hugging or touching all the time just to enjoy each others presence . Just sitting there talking to her was almost better than kissing her . Almost . I said almost .

Elizabeth - Carter and I have hung out all week . I never took myself as to be the girl with a boyfriend . But now that I have one I see why every girl wants to be in a relationship so badly . It's great . I love just the little things about Carter and how the things he does for me , says to me , talks to me , the look of complete and utter adoration in his eyes . I love the way he holds the door open for me like a gentlemen . I love when he buys me flowers on every date we go on . It's so cute .! And his smile , I swear that smile could cure cancer . His brown eyes there so mixed with emotion it's makes them their own kind of beautiful . His hair , his dark brown hair that he always flips to the right side . Yes I know which side and no that is not weird . Also the way he calls me beautiful and makes me feel special . I know my brain is telling me to put up my walls and block out any emotion . Because I'll just get hurt but my heart just won't let that happen . So yes I let myself love all the little things that matter most about Carter and the things he does . It's the little things in life that make everything seem alright .

Carter - Today was Friday and me and Elizabeth were walking out of school , hand in hand . We walked out to my car . Elizabeth has been letting me pick her up from her house and letting me drop her off every day this week . Although it is peculiar how she rushed in the mornings like she's going to get caught by somebody and get in trouble . I know I have to do that but that's just because my parents are wacko . But , she's never said anything about her parents so I have no idea what's going on . As we got in the car and I drove away from the school , I picked up her hand again . " Hey I have a question . " she looked at me " Shoot . " I took a deep breath . This is the conversation I've been dreading . The when am I going to meet your parents one .? Yeah that's the one . I can't even began to explain how nervous I am just thinking about it . " When am I going to meet your parents .? " she let out a nervous laugh " umm never .? " but instead of stating it she went up like in a question . " I know I don't want to do it either but isn't it a rule or something in the relationship book that I have to meet the girls parents .? " she just stared straight ahead with a nervous look on her face . " you don't have to if you don't want to . " I said " Yeah I think I do . " she squeezed my hand gently " can we talk about this later .? " I squeezed back in reassurance " sure but we do have to talk about it sometime . " she sighed " I know it ."

Elizabeth - I knew this was gonna happen . It's an important part in every relationship . But I just can't do it . My parents are not normal not even close . Carter already came close to finding out my secret that day he told me he liked me . But then we got distracted but our attractedness to each other . Not too long after we lulled up at my house . I looked in the driveway . Mom and dads car was here . That was unusual because dad doesn't normally get home until like 5:00 or something . Now I was a little scared . My mom all of a sudden came strutting out the door in her Valentino dress and Louboutin heels . Yes I know what your thinking wow y'all must be rich . And I guess you could say that . My dad makes a great heap of money . In fact I own 2 pairs of Louboutin heels in my closet . Surprising no .? So here comes my mom strutting with that little sway in her walk like she was trying to seduce Carter . Cause I know she was NOT trying to seduce me . " Who's your little friend Elizabeth .? You never told me you had a boyfriend . " she said while sending a flirty smile towards Carter . I gagged , I literally gagged . " Mom seriously your too old for him .! That's disgusting and perverted . " she seemed taken aback by what I said . " you need to come inside . I don't want to see you with this boy again . You did not ask for my permission and I do not give my permission . So you can say goodbye for good and send him on his way . " she said while flicking her hand like she was shoeing him away . " I'm not doing that mom . You do nothing . So you have No right to tell me what to do . "

I said firmly . She was not going to take another thing from me . I wouldn't allow it . " You do not want to go there with me Elizabeth Marie . Now get your but inside before I make your father come out here and escort you in . " I started to shake with anger . All I saw was red . I could barely contain myself and I was about to lash out . " Carter . Drive . Now . " I said through gritted teeth . He understand everything I meant in those three simple words .

Carter - I was worried but with the way Elizabeth was acting I didn't want her to lash out on me . So I just drove . We drove for hours before she calmed down and I could stop . Her phone was ringing continuously for the first hour or so until she turned it off and threw it in the back seat . I pulled over after she had calmed down so that I could talk to her an focus solely on her . I waited a few minutes and took my time studying her face , every little crease , and detail there was . She had dark brown hair that shines in the sunlight . When she gets excited or she's surprised she raises her eyebrows causing her to have creases in her forehead . Next , she had the thickest little adorable eyebrows . After that my favorite part , her eyes . She has brown eyes that light up when she's happy or when she sees me . But sometimes when she's thinking hard I see them full of sadness and pain although when I ask her about it she replies with a simple ' nothing ' . I know it's not just nothing but I don't want to push her into telling me anything . I think she'll tell me in her own time . Then her cheeks that blush whenever I call her beautiful . And her nose . Gosh she hates her nose . She's complained about how big it is multiple times . But in truth it's really not that big . Her lips naturally red plump lips . Normally that would be the guys favorite thing on a girl but not me . A relationship isn't always about kissing and hugging and touching . It's the connection two people have to share together that makes a great relationship . Without a connection there is No relationship . Elizabeth finally turned to look at me . I figured it was my time to speak up . " So , mind explaining to me what that was about .? " her eyes had that look in them again full of sadness and pain . She exhaled . " I really don't want to but I guess you deserve to know . " she took a moment and a deep breath before she began speaking . " It started when I was 11 , my mom and dad were happily married . We were a happy family . " She smiled at the thought before quickly dropping it . " but then my dad he - he went out with his friends to a bar . He drank so much and well , he - he ended up cheating on my mom . " her eyes were blank now . " that bastard came home and didn't tell my mom for a few days but he finally broke down from all the guilt and told her . He said he wouldn't apologize because he didn't regret it . Sick right .? Well yeah . Then my mom fell into a loophole of depression . Her kind of way to get out of reality for a bit . She took drugs and so many pills and things . I didn't know what to do . Everytime I saw her she was high and would curse and throw things at me . But in the end after it all she just cried . She cried every night . Dad was still there but he went out with his friends more often . She knew what he was doing but whenever I brought it up she would reject it . So I just sat there holding her in my arms while she cried . " her eyes were now brimming with tears . " you don't have to go on with it if you don't won't too . " I said reassuring her .

Elizabeth - I sniffed " I'm fine . It went on with verbal abuse and stuff for the past few years . My father doesn't even really care about me or what I do . He just doesn't . A few days ago like a week or something m-my mom h-hit me and now whenever she gets mad about something she just lashes out on me . I don't want to hit her back because she's my mom and I don't think I could so I just let her do it . " by now silent tears were streaming down my cheeks . Carter was looking me in the eyes , his filling with pain , and distress . In thought moment I felt so loved and cared for . That someone actually hurt when I hurt . It was so tragic yet so amazing to lead up to this moment . Carter wrapped his arms around not saying anything . But there was no need for words . Because just being there in his arms while he hugged all the pain away was the best moment of my life .