Notes

Chapter 6 First date

Elizabeth - I had no idea what to wear . I told Lizzie about my date so maybe she wouldn't mind coming over . I sent her a text .

- Come over and help me pick out an outfit .?

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-Yes .! Be there in 5 .

Good thing she loved right around the corner .

Man my palms were sweating and I was freaking out . Wait . I stopped myself . You can't freak out . You can't like him . Your only doing this to be nice . Thank God my parents weren't home or they might have asked about my date . Then he could have walked in on them doing God knows what to me . Yelling , screaming , throwing , and here lately slapping . Yes , my mom had gotten into the bad habit of slapping me straight across the face . Once the other day she locked me in my closet . MY closet . She locked me in my own frickin' closet . How on earth did she get to do that . I sat on my bed and put my head in my hands , waiting for Lizzie to show up .

Carter - I started to get ready for my , can't believe I'm saying this , date . The only thing I've ever experienced was a one night stand . And I'm pretty sure that isn't any where close to a date . I just hoped that I would impress her . I said a movie date so she would think we were going to the movies . But I had an amazing surprise for her . I was nearly shaking from the nerves I was getting . I've never been this nervous about a girl . The only trouble I'll have leaving is trying to get past my dad . But , I'm thinking it was his night to hang with 'the guys' which is a bunch of old , lousy , drunks . They go to a bar , get drunk , play poker , then dad comes home sometimes in the early morning . By then my mom is too high from the drugs she's taking to even notice his late stroll through the house . But me .? Yeah I notice . I smell the booze as soon as he walks in every time he comes back from hanging with 'the guys' . I can hardly go to sleep in this house most of the time . The term this may be a house but it's defiantly not a home certainly applies in this situation .

Elizabeth - " Hey I didn't know if you wanted me to bring a few outfits or not . But I brought some anyway . " Lizzie says and she comes in my room with an armful of outfits . The reason Lizzie actually came in the house peacefully , is because my mom is all about her image . Our family may be seriously messed up but she will do anything to make it to where no one will know . So whenever Lizzie or anyone for that matter comes within 100 feet of our family , she puts on her fake smile and gives us a ' if you don't pretend to be happy I'll ruin you ' glare . So yeah all about her image huh .? I scoff at the thought . Lizzie looks down at me while I'm currently laying in my bed with my arm draped over my face .

" Get up .! We need to find you something to wear . " I groan like it's the hardest thing in the world , to get out of bed . " I'm getting up . I'm coming . " I sit up slowly taking my time while Lizzie glares at me . First she hands me a long sleeve flower print shirt , a skater skirt , a maroon / pinkish scarf , black leggings , and some high heal boot things . I try it on but decide not to wear a skirt . There were leggings , yes , but I would be more comfortable in jeans . After telling her that we went through multiple outfits . Finally deciding on a flowy blue blouse , black skinny jeans , and black sandals . We went to the bathroom and I let her do my hair . She curled it to perfection . Good because I wouldn't have it any other way . Man that sounded stuck up . Oh well . Then I did my own makeup and by then it was time to leave .

Carter - I was so freaking nervous . How can a girl make someone this nervous ? Someone please tell me because I don't know . I drove to the park rather slow . Don't get me wrong I still wanted to go on the date . I wasn't stupid . I was just so nervous I almost didn't want to go because I was afraid that I would mess something up . Slowly but surely , by the time I get there she's waiting on our bench . I love calling it our bench . It used to be her bench . And now it's ours . Wow that sounded incredibly cheesy . She was so beautiful . Like she was breathtaking . My breath literally hitched in my throat as it was trying to make it's way down my esophagus . I've never seen anything other than her straight hair . It was so pretty curled . She was wearing the slightest hint of makeup but not enough to show that much . When I approached her she looked up with a blush and then right back at her feet again . " Hello beautiful . " she blushed again . She blushes a lot but it's so cute I can't help but make her do it .