Significance of You

III

This girl is something else. I wouldn't know what to define her as. All I could say is that she's important in my life. To put an actual definition of what she is is to do the impossible. She was one of my earliest friends. But then she was my girlfriend. And for a while, we didn't speak at all. Now we talk here and there. But still, I'm not sure where we stand with one another. We've been really hot and cold in the past few years. It's one or another. We talk or we don't. However it doesn't change the impact that she has in my life.

I remember when I met her. She's older than me by a year so she was also in a grade above me. We didn't get to see each other much in elementary but there were days when all the grades could mix and hang out. She would come and hang out with me. It was something about her that made me so happy. Maybe it was her warm, brown eyes that were so inviting or maybe it was that smile that could reassure you of just about anything. When I seen her, she would come up to me and pick me up in a hug. She's always been taller than me.

As time went on, our bond changed. After a while, we stopped talking. But then we came back and our bond changed from friendship to romantic. We started flirting and we started getting even closer. We got together back in my eighth grade year. We started talking everyday. We spent every free moment talking. I supported her in every game she had since she was a basketball and volleyball player. I did all I could to support her. We came to love each other.

When we broke up, I felt like that bond was breaking. And it was. It broke and me and her stopped communicating completely. It was sad to watch but yet it happened anyways. I didn't know what else to do but to let go of this because I knew if I held on, I would end up so broken and hurt. I lost my best friend, my girlfriend, and my only outlet for release when I was hurting or sad. All in one. After we stopped talking, it all really got bad. And I wasn't ready for it.

We fell off and I fell into a deep, dark hole. I couldn't even imagine how my life would look up because at the time, I didn't have that many friends. I didn't even have any really. But after a year or so of not talking, we got back to being friends and now she's truly someone important in my life. I'm glad she's in it and I'm glad I can still call her my friend. She's truly amazing even if I don't get to see it everyday. She's one of a kind and one day someone will show her that.