Significance of You

XV

She and I didn't seem like we would be friends. All my friends knew her and I don't think she knew I existed before sophomore year. I ended up sitting next to her on the first day of school in English and I did what I knew how to do: crack jokes to break the ice. She laughed at all my jokes. She is a beautiful girl with dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. She had a smile that lit up the entire room. I didn't know her then, all I knew was that I wanted to get to know her.

After a few classes with her, I began to consider her my friend. We joked and we laughed and we just clicked in that way. We didn't talk outside of English class. Not often at least. After the first semester of the class, I began getting confident enough to just go and sit in front of her everyday. We joked around when we watched movies in the class and we made fun of the things within the movie. It was a school friendship. After first semester ended and we got back to school, she got into this relationship. Remember that. It's gonna be important here soon.

I was in a bad relationship. She was there for me every time I needed to escape and just be me for a while. When I was with her, I forgot I was in a relationship. I was just Alex when I was with her. She started having some issues with her relationship, which is normal. So she would talk to me about it and I would comfort her and try to build up her confidence that they would be okay. We grew incredibly close within such a short amount of time.

People started to assume that me and her were seeing each other behind her boyfriends back after I had broken up with my (then) girlfriend. It was untrue. False. I just simply was there for her through it all as she was for me. She took care of me when I was drugged out because I didn't want to feel anything. She took care of me when I was incredibly zoned out and couldn't even walk straight. I appreciate her so very much for that. She's part of the reason why I was able to sober up and fix myself.

I didn't expect for her to come into my life and change it. I was just looking for a goofy friendship to help me get through the year. Instead she got to see me at some of the worst moments of my life and I've seen her break down completely. She's exposed her heart to me and I've exposed mine to her. I don't think I would've made it out of the year alive without her. She helped a lot in my recovery and I appreciate it. She really is the keenest girl I know. (Please don't take that seriously. That's not how I talk. That's an inside joke between me and her.)