Significance of You

XIX

The relationship we have is weird. She's the Jackie to my Michael. Without the romantic love. More like Jackie and Michael whenever Jackie was dating Hyde. That's a much more accurate representation of our relationship. She always had something that she could say about me to put me in my place. She was one of the few people who weren't afraid to do so. We've gone through almost everything together. The awkward "emo" phase to the cringe worthy selfie poses phase. More so on her part. I've been there for her through her heartbreaks and she's never seen me without a lover.

She does a lot of things that I would've never dreamed of doing. Like she follows the astrology charts and she does them for fun. She used to do those really cringe worthy videos called musical.lys. She and I don't talk as much as we used to but when we do, it's for hours on end and it's us catching up on whatever we've missed in each other's lives. I loved that about our relationship. We could stop talking for a month or so but once we get back to talking, it's like we never really even stopped.

When I say she's never seen me without a lover, she has. However, it's almost rare to her. She says it has something to do with my zodiac sign and how Libras can't really be without a lover or affection for long. I don't believe in that but I know it's true. I needed affection almost all of the time and she was never afraid to call me out for it. I never was afraid to call her out about her little boy toys either. And she had many. She would tell me about all of them too.

Beyond that, she was a beautiful girl. She knew how to do her makeup and she knew how to get the best out of lighting and angles and she knew how to naturally look beautiful while she's sitting in the front seat of her moms car. She would call me from there often. I always admired her. She had a few health issues back in middle school and was hospitalized but it doesn't stop her now. She still lives her life to the absolute fullest. I loved that about her. I loved how carefree she could be.

This was a middle school friendship that started online. Back when she was obsessed with The Vampire Diaries and Twilight. Now she's gone viral for ranting online about how if you aren't Team Edward, you're wrong. Now she's grown into someone who actually knows how to take pictures. Now everyone loves her, including me. This is a friendship that is slowly fading away and as much as I hate to admit it, it is. We no longer talk like this for hours. We no longer get deep into each other's lives like we used to. We just no longer have that deep connection. But I love her still.