Heaven

5. Hide and go seek

What should I wear for our date? I can't decide. My family keeps on bugging me about dumb stuff. They're still making me do stuff for them though. With one arm. I feel like a servant.

There's no love in this family, just hate. Things were so much better before my parents divorce. I personally don't care about my dad leaving us for that bimbo-homewrecker. He was an alcoholic anyway. At least now he seems better..now that i'm out of the picture. My mom wasn't always a bitch either. She had a successful life back in Buffalo. But she couldn't afford the house by herself, so we were going to downsize. Then she got this job offer in Syracuse that paid more and brought me and my sister along. Her new job is way more stressful then it was in Buffalo though. She already looks like she aged 5 years and we've only been here for 3 months. It's really not bad here, I actually really like it here. I'm just pissed that this had to happen during the best few years of my life. I mean thanks to my dad, my whole life is messed up. It's different. I'm different. And now my family's a wreck. We scream at each other practically every time we talk. I've never had such an urge to just go back in time.

"Blake! When were you in the hospital? Why didn't you tell me this? Who'd you kill this time?" The last one...that one question ate me away inside. My mom was 'joking'. Her sense of humor went dry over the past few months. She damn knew what happened in Buffalo a few years ago. She knows what I did.

That was too much. I couldn't take it anymore. I started to pack my bags. I put them by the door with other necessities. I opened my safe and took my money, birth certificate, and social security card. I went downstairs. I went on a rant. "That was the final straw. I almost died in that hospital! I got shot!! Ok? Your useless piece of shit son almost died. Does that make you feel any better?" I screamed. "Relax it was a joke. And you do not talk to me like that. I'm your mother!" "And a shitty one at that I might add." I said. My mom was too lazy smoking her cigarette to get up off the couch and probably smack me again. Alice says "Chill! Jesus everything is always about you...God you don't know how hard my life is now!!" Lord kill me. "You are the most selfish and cruelest person I've ever known. Go die and go to hell. The both of you. It would be a miracle to never see you again, but unfortunately, becasue of you, my life is hell, and miracles don't happen in hell." I said as I gave them the finger. I saw their faces and smiled. I walked out the door with my bags and took my sisters jeep. I drove off and didn't know where to go.

I didn't know what to do. I decided to just drop the jeep off at Wegmans. I walked to where I thought Briar's house was. It took me forever but I finally made it there. I tried to see which room was hers, but it was hard to see. Her house was huge. My house is like a shack compared to hers. I found some pebbles and started throwing them at the windows. With my first window, nothing happened. I moved on to the next one. I saw someone lift down the blinds and then quickly go away. I saw Briar open the door and come running outside. "What the hell are you doing?! It's 11 pm!! You could have woke up my parents!!" She said to me. I liked how she didn't even bother putting on sweatpants for me. Her shorts were practically at her waist. Figures. "I'm sorry I just need some place to stay, I don't know where to go. Do you know any hotels near the school?" She looked at me confused. She could tell I wasn't going back to my house anytime soon, but she was confused at why I would want to go to school. At least, I think that's why. "Hmm....uhhhmm. There's a Day's Inn about a block or two away from school." She sounded sad when she said that, like she wanted me to stay with her or something. I can't do that to her though. I also took it as a hint that the Day's Inn can take cash only. "Thank you Briar." I hugged her. "Please don't tell anyone about this." She smiled "I won't. I hope you don't get shot by any gangsters during your stay." I laughed. Oh Briar. She's awesome...even if I did almost die because of her.

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I get into my room. It's no Hilton, but it's fine. I shut the door and start unpacking. Thank God I brought my fake ID with me. I never even use it because it only says i'm 18, so its only good for getting into some clubs. Either way, It's how I was allowed to book a room. I booked it for two nights. I need to figure things out after then. Maybe then I'll go back to my house. I doubt my mom's even looking for me and won't care if I go back. Maybe Alice will, she's not a complete lost cause.

I don't even know what to do. I may as well just leave Syracuse. The only thing keeping me here is Tess. She's so aggravating though. There's something about her that makes my head spin. I don't even know why, we barely talked. There's something about her eyes that makes me see...myself. It's so weird. This whole place is weird. That's why I have to leave. I don't know. I need sleep though. That's first on my mind.