bring it || han jisung

seventeen

12:34 am

Oh look at that. Yet another sleep less night so far.

Ever since Jisung left to handle some "business" I've been just laying in bed, staring up at the ceiling as I thought about all the things that have happened. Starting that class, meeting Minho and his friends, being so interested in Jisung, the incident with Borah...

What good is my life now that I've lost my best friend and the only person who has supported my dreams?

My body turns over to my side, meeting the same sight I've seen a million times. An empty bed.

I just need to get away. I need to get away from people, from my life. I just want a new fresh start, I need a fresh start.

I raise my body up from the bed, immediately resting my head on my hands. Why did this have to happen? What did I do? What did she do...

I have to change this. I must...
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Joelle | 12:57 am
Minho?

Minho | 12:57 am
Joelle, why are you still up?

Joelle | 12:58 am
I was..thinking

Minho|12:58 am
About what? Is everything okay?

Joelle | 12:58 am
Everything that's happened lately

Joelle | 12:58 am
Can I ask something?

Minho | 12:59 am
Yes! What is it?

Joelle | 12:59 am
why did Jisung take interest in me? Please be honest too

Minho | 12:59 am
I-

Minho | 1:00 am
He told me that you were pretty and he thought that your looks could help him with his friends and their "business" they attend to so he tried to make you into someone who'd be accepted by them

Joelle | 1:00 am
So he never liked me

Minho | 1:00 am
Joelle, he doesn't talk to me about that anymore but I think that he might, I can see that he's changed

Joelle | 1:01 am
What if I wanted to help him..

Minho | 1:01 am
you can't be serious, right?

Minho | 1:02 am
Do you know what he does?

Joelle | 1:02 am
he told me everything

Minho | 1:02 am
And you're STILL thinking about it and wanting to join him?

Joelle | 1:03 am
I know my limits, minho, I know when to leave if things will get bad.

Minho | 1:03 am
I know that my words won't effect your decision but just be safe okay? Listen to jisung and changbin please and don't get into any trouble

Minho | 1:03 am
I know chan won't be happy about this..

Joelle | 1:04 am
I'm not going to tell him

Minho | 1:04 am
Joelle, he's like your older brother, he'll find out sooner or later

Joelle | 1:04 am
Yes I know but he's still hurting and I don't want to hurt him more

Minho | 1:04 am
Aren't you hurting too?

Joelle | 1:05 am
I am but I just need to get away from all this, I need to start fresh and if I join jisung I feel like it could give me some excitement 

Minho | 1:05 am
Fine. Just be safe okay?

Joelle | 1:05 am
Yes mom, I will

Minho | 1:06 am
Thank you, now I have to get to sleep, please try and sleep too. Ily Joelle, PLEASE stay out of trouble and listen to them

Joelle | 1:06 am
I will, goodnight minho

Minho | 1:06 am
Goodnight Joelle

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Joelle | 1:10 am
Jisung, I want to help you and Changbin. A certain person told me your original intentions with me and I...I want to help you.

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