Grow Up || y·k

Chapter 8

"I swear I didn't mean to fall in love with you!"

what

did

I

just

said

fUCK YOU YOONGI WHY ARE SO FUCKING DUMB?!

"Y-you love me hyung?" Jungkook asked dumbfounded, he doesn't know what to feel about the sudden confession, he haven't yet sorted out his feelings and he's still not sure if he likes his hyung in an intimate sense or what, and surely he doesn't want to risk his hyung's feelings just to confirm something that may or may not even exist in his feelings

"sorry hyung"

'of course' Yoongi thought, he expected this so it didn't hurt much but it still hurts like a bitch, he scoffed to hide his emotions and put on a tight smile "called it, well don't worry much about it, I'll get over it soon" Jungkook couldn't help but cringe at his hyung's last words

I don't want him to give up, but that's just plain selfish of me and that'll be unfair on his part Jungkook contemplated on his mind, he's confused with his own sexuality, along with his immature mind, it isn't helping at all

"no hyung...I don't know what to feel, I most definitely don't hate it, I don't feel uncomfortable either, It's just that.....I don't know what I feel and I don't want you to get hurt either, please give me more time to think about it hyung" Jungkook said, breathless and nervous, he doesn't intend to hurt Yoongi in any way, in fact he's avoiding it, until he's sure with his feelings, until he can admit that he loves Yoongi confidently without hesitation, he'll never give the older any advances

"It's really okay, I know you're confused, I'm sorry that I'm not the cool hyung you admire, here I am, an awkward mess, and thank you for considering my feelings, please let's just forget about this"

--

"hey, Jungkook-ah! hey!" Jungkook only snapped from his thoughts when he felt a throbbing pain on his head

"hm?"

"that reaction is too weak! what's wrong?" Hoseok asked the maknae, it's been years since he saw Jungkook this silent, and that was when the younger first joined the group and he's most certainly not used to it now since Jungkook has been lively these past years with them

"oh, nothing"

"don't nothing me fucker, what happened? who wronged you? when can I kill him?" Jungkook couldn't help but let out a bitter chuckle "more like I wronged him..." I'm not the kind maknae you all think, I'm selfish and I don't deserve being loved and cared

"what do you mean?"

"nothing"

"are you going though puberty again?" Hoseok asked the younger, that's the only reason he can think of but when he noticed that Jungkook doesn't plan on answering any of his questions, he decided tk drop it

"by the way I can't go to our lunch date with Yoongi hyung tomorrow, I got sudden plans" oh shit I forgot about that, what do I do now that Hoseok hyung wouldn't be there?

"w-why?"

"sudden plans just as I said, just keep Yoongi hyung company, he doesn't invite people out often and he looks enthusiastic about it just yesterday"

now Jungkook felt even more bad about what he did, he couldn't let Yoongi eat alone but he also couldn't give his hyung false hopes, besides it would uncomfortable for the both of them

this is making me crazy

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"hyung! give me affection!"

"hyung"

"hyung fuck me"

"more like fuck off" Yoongi said weakly just to shut Jimin up

"that reaction is so weak! that's so not you, usually you'd kick me out of your precious geinus lab and wouldn't talk to me for three days, what's gotten into you?"

"I confessed to him" he said looking at the floor, Jimin shot up from his seat from disbelief "what?!"

"and he said he's sorry because he doesn't know what to feel about it and he doesn't want to hurt me" he said with closed eyes

"wow~ that's a trademark remark of a douche popular guy to an ugly girl who just confessed to him, I didn't know Jungkook had it in him" Jimin clicked his tongue, he loves the maknae because he's cute but he wouldn't tolerate a douche attitude

"no, he sounds sincere about it, like he's really guilty for not reciprocating my feelings, that's why I feel bad for him and I feel guilty too for making him go through this, I'd just tell him later that he can ditch our meal for tomorrow with Hoseok to clear his mind"

"I hate your maturity sometimes, why do you treat yourself so bad?"

"because I deserve it, anyways I told Jin-hyung about you knowing their secret relationship so they told me to set up a meeting when they're here" Yoongi said trying to change the topic, but Jimin isn't having any of it

"You're still not okay, since I can't go with your meal tomorrow, let's go to the ice cream shop right now"

Yoongi was left with no choice after Jimin dragged him outside, he just smiled at the floor Jimin can really touch his member's heart at times when he's not tricking us, it feels warm...

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Hi guys!!! if you didn't noticed, I based two things about this chapter in real life happenings of bangtan:

1) the meal

--I once saw an interview trans where Yoongi said that there was a time where Jungkook, Hoseok and him planned to eat outside but when Hoseok couldn't make it, Jungkook decided to not to go also, leaving Yoongi by himself all dressed up for nothing, but still he ate even if he's all alone (I'll try to find the receipt after this)

2) "Jimin can really touch his member's heart at times"

-- I based this from the recent BTS profile they provided us this 2018 festa, Namjoon said that Jimin has the ability to touch the members' heart at times (that's so fckin sweet right)

also some of the parts in this book beside what I just told you was based in real life too, I'll make a quick list

1) Yoongi's tsundere attitude (im showing in this book that he's not all cool and all, he cares for his members and all he loves but he just won't show it often, you may notice this if you look closely, I hate it when other ffs make Yoongi the idgf and cold guy when he really isn't, and I didn't made him completely grumpy too, hope you noticed that)

2) Yoongi's not fond of horror movies and so is Hoseok and Jimin, while Jungkook and Taehyung are immune to it

3) on Chapter 3 It stated that Namjoon is one of the causes of bickering in the dorm, that was based on one American interview of them I recently watched

4) Jungkook is possessive little brat (I'm sure we all know this, I based his personality on his remark "what's mine is mine, what's yours is mine")

5) Jungkook takes off his clothes while sleeping 👀

6) The little fight between Jin and Taehyung from Burn The Stage™ was also mentioned in this book to make it more realistic and to put depth in Taehyung's personality (I hope it's okay for you guys, please don't get triggered about it, I don't intend to offend anyone, If you don't want it then I'll take it out)

I think that's all of it! I based their personalities in their real personalities because that's what makes them unique, I don't want to over exaggerate their certain quirks because I think they're more than that ^_^ btw thank you guys for reading this 😭❤ I'm sorry for this shitty short chapter

-- miki