Grow Up || y·k

Chapter 1

"Grow up" the phrase he always say to the youngest, it's practically just an expression of him whenever the youngest does a stupid or clumsy thing, he'd smile fondly at Jungkook then he'll say those words as if mocking but with tone filled with pure affection, he admits that he misses the smaller Jungkook, it makes it easier for him to take care of the youngest, to mock him, to act as the superior older brother.

It's really hard to act as the superior one when the youngest just wrap his buff arms around his shoulder, 'i used to do that to him' he thought, but of course he couldn't now because of their height gap, it'd be uncomfortable for him to wrap his arms around Jungkook's shoulder, hell he'd probably had to stand on tiptoe just to get the right position and ain't nobody got time for that. Jungkook has gotten prouder and sly than before, he bothers his hyung every chance given that no one has dared to do before yet he always gets away with it, maybe that's where he got his confidence from, Yoongi is short tempered and he gets irritated easily, yet for some reason, the youngest's overly hyper movements and playful personality appears adorable to him, for example is when Jungkook blows winds on his neck or nuzzle his nose onto him-an attempt to bother the older-he'll just smile and rub the back of his head, it became a routine

"yah, Yoongi-yah" then followed a cheeky laugh, this is one of the examples, he sometimes drop the honorifics to gain Yoongi's attention "Haha funny" Yoongi rolled his eyes hiding a smile "yah Yoongi-yah" this time it's Hoseok so he turned around with a deadly deadpanned look on his face "What did you just say?" the laughter fade away leaving Hoseok's awkward smile and Jungkook's cheeky grin

"aish that's unfair" Hoseok whimpered and attacked Yoongi with his aegyo, Yoongi scrunched his nose in an exaggerated manner "i don't want to be rude but I'm disgusted" that last one was a joke and everone know it so they continued their jokes on each other as if no one had snapped. He never tell jokes like that to Jungkook though, because he's afraid that Jungkook might take it seriously and would curl up at some corner and sulk. Everyone knows his major soft spot for Jungkook-he has a soft spot for the maknae line but Jungkook is by far the strongest-but no one brought the topic to the table, everyone just lived with it because they're used to it, and probably because no one is brave enough to call Yoongi out about this

"Jungkook-ah, Namjoon and I will be going to Jeju island tomorrow, we've already talked about this right? So-"

"I'll sleep in your room starting tomorrow to look after Odeng and Eomuk, yes I remember, but why not just take them with you?"

"I want to but Namjoon said it'd be easier to travel without worrying about my kids so I'm leaving them after your care since they love you so much for some reason" Jungkook just nodded with a toothy grin, he likes playing with Odeng and Eomuk too although he prioritize his games more than the two adorable sugar gliders, nevertheless he agreed to the deal since he missed having Yoongi as his roommmate

"Enjoy your trip hyung, what are you two gonna do anyways?" Jimin asked whilst silently sneaking away some chips from Taehyung's grasp who's currently surfing twitter, Seokjin's ears went red all of the sudden "we-we're just going to find inspiration for our next song, calm down kids" "yeah calm down" they both laughed awkwardly

"we aren't even panicking, what's there to calm down?" Hoseok sent them a knowing look "shut up" Namjoon said with a tight smile which earned a chorus of laughs, the maknae line doesn't know anything though, they're just laughing at their leader's pettiness, however Hoseok and Yoongi knows a lot on what's up, this is a secret only the Hyung line needs to know, it's late and Jin and Namjoon needs to sleep so Yoongi took the initiative and stood up "It's already past 12am and you two need to sleep early so get the fuck up y'all, we're sleeping"

Jin and Yoongi headed to their bedroom like the rest of the boys, just when Yoongi's about to turn off his lampshade, he heard Jin calling him from the other side of the room "What?" he called back "just get your ass here instead of yelling" he sighed then walked over to Jin's area, he leaned to the shelf seperating both of their spaces and tilted his head, looking at Jin who's sitting on his bed, currently packing his clothes "Kookie's sleeping here starting tomorrow" Jin said with eyes still concentrated on his clothes "Yes I know, is that all?" he asked, the elder looked up to him then gave him a weird look "what?" "what what?"

Yoongi sighed, massaging his temple a bit he looked at his hyung again"You know just finish what you're doing and just sleep"

"you just can't keep on ignoring your feelings Yoongi, it'll eat you up one day"

"what am I supposed to do? Even if I tell him, even if he actually likes me-which is impossible-nothing will change, you know the drill, Korea isn't the least warm to something new, I love Armys just as how I love my family and Bangtan, I can't bear to see or hear their disappointed reactions" he looked down, Jin bit his inner cheek, Yoongi might be known as the i-don't-give-a-fuck person but he's actually not, he lives in his own little world of anxiety, always afraid of what his actions might bring to his loved ones, he doesn't care if the whole world would criticize him but he couldn't bear to watch the world degrade his treasures, his family, ARMYs and friends

"then we can keep it between us seven, you know they'll accept you no matter what, Namjoon and I know that too, the only reason we're not telling about our relationship is because we know they'll hype about it, especially Jimin"

"I'm not as brave as you two, he doesn't even think of me that way, he's straight-

"and you are too right? I mean, you've never been attracted to the same sex before other than Jungkook"

"well, you're right but still, if he'd have a certain 'personalized sexuality then surely it would be Taehyung, you've seen how he looks at Tae, how he cares about him a lot, how he's so possessive over him, I just... You know what let's end this useless topic and sleep, you'll exhaust yourself tomorrow knowing Namjoon would probably lock you in the hotel ro-"

"NO THANKS I can't hear anything, good night to you too bitch"

Yoongi just let out a weak laugh then headed to his bed and slept his anxiety away

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