So I made this in about 4 days because of the first part just really stuck with me. But this is partially vent, partially a regular song, so I'll probably put it in both.
I'm calm, cool, collected, composing my composure.
I'm elegant with how I rhyme and how I move, a composer.
I express my words eloquently, unlike these posers.
Everlasting in the shadows, but that part of life is over!
I'm tired of not being the best I could be.
I'm tired of people looking down on me.
I'm tired of being considered weak, can't you see?
I'm tired of it. A break is what I need.
...but...
I'm elevating, never ever hating.
The aura I'm emanating, the facts I'm stating.
The screams are grating, it's all frustrating.
I'm stuck hesitating and it's devastating!...
But I'm accelerating and participating,
Even if it gets intimidating.
And whenever I scream into the void,
I'm always left exasperating.
And even when I get a chance to speak,
It's like my words were just negating.
And when for once I'm happy with life,
I get back down and it's irritating!
...It's hard to stay calm when life is degrading.
It's hard to stay happy when everyone else is dominating.
It's hard to keep a smile when I'm always left waiting.
Waiting... for something fascinating.
I try to blend in, but I'm always the odd one out.
I have no skills or strength, I'm short but stout... I mean that as like determined, not the other kinds of stout.
I try to do things, but it never works out.
It's far out, there's no doubt, my life is just a giant wipeout.
I look up to others, but I never say it to them.
I want to talk to them, be more like them.
I see what they do, but my limbs become numb.
I can't speak out, I feel like I'm in a slum...
I look in the mirror... and ask who I have become.
I feel miniscule... a small little crumb.
I see what they can do... Be calm amidst all the mayhem.
They have an exciting life, and I want to be like them.
...but it's hard when I get too nervous to talk to them...
...It's hard to stay calm when life is degrading.
It's hard to stay happy when everyone else is dominating.
It's hard to keep a smile when I'm always left waiting.
Waiting... for something fascinating.
