What even is my purpose? Like, what's the point of bothering to do anything if I suck at it all? And the things I'm decent at, most people dont care for them. I put time into stories, people don't bother for them unless they're made specifically for a certain group of people. Songs, people just gloss over them. Roleplaying just makes me feel inadequate because most people are better than me but I also get mad at myself for not asking them to roleplay with me because I want to learn from them. I can't cook great, I'm awful with kids, I'm awful at talking, so what's the purpose of me existing? All I do is hold people back. I am awful at everyone so people have to help me. I have no use, I'm just dead weight. That's why friends just push me away. Because they have no need for me. Because I'm meaningless in the grand scheme of things.
