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forty-six.

8:19 am

sinfulsinai
jimin can we talk
please

10:15 am

sinfulsinai
you do know i know you're awake
so you can stop pretending not to see this

11:07 am

sinfulsinai
seriously whats wrong with you
do you really NEED to go on a jealous fit?

11:17 am

sinfulsinai
you know what? fine
have your tantrum whatever
whenever you're ready to talk like an adult, please contact me

11:19 am

nojamsjimin
so now im not an adult?
what seeing your ex made you think that?

sinfulsinai
can you stop this, please?
he means nothing to me

nojamsjimin
its not what it looked like
look
its best that you tell me if you do still have feelings for him
save me some heartache maybe

sinfulsinai
i told you and i meant it
i DONT have feelings for him

nojamsjimin
yeah?
then explain that contact picture please
like give me one good, solid reason for not having changed it

sinfulsinai
well maybe because ever since our breakup every single time i saw his name, even in the contact, i was sent back to the very night i caught him cheating on me

nojamsjimin
then why not just delete it?

sinfulsinai
because i would always refuse to look at his name
even opening the contact to delete it
meant that i had to look at that god awful picture again
and be reminded that my whole fucking relationship was a lie

nojamsjimin
but if he stopped affecting you
why didnt you do it now

sinfulsinai
sigh
you wouldnt understand

nojamsjimin
try me

sinfulsinai
because i started doubting ours would turn out like that too

nojamsjimin
what?
im nothing like him

sinfulsinai
i know you're not

nojamsjimin
no sinai
it really does feel like you don't
how could you think that i would ever do to you what he did

sinfulsinai
i dont know, okay?
im always expecting the worst
im a pessimist
thats just how my system is wired to work

nojamsjimin
you dont trust me
at all
you never will
you dont tell me half of whats going on with your life
you dont let me in
and you doubt me 24/7

sinfulsinai
jimin
dont do this

nojamsjimin
do what? say the truth?
you know im starting to regret this whole thing

sinfulsinai
... what?

nojamsjimin
nothing

sinfulsinai
did you mean our relationship?

nojamsjimin
no
thats not what i meant

sinfulsinai
but i think it was
i knew this would happen at some point

nojamsjimin
lmao
yeah do that and pin it all on me
because im the one with high expectations right?
even though all i wanted was to get to know my girlfriend

sinfulsinai
im not trying to pin anything on you you asshole

nojamsjimin
asshole?
are we resorting to name calling now?

sinfulsinai
you're making me so angry right now

nojamsjimin
welcome to the fucking club

sinfulsinai
what the fuck did i even do to you

nojamsjimin
its not what you did
its what you DIDNT do
and that was trust me
thats all i ever asked

sinfulsinai
im FUCKING TRYING HERE JIMIN

nojamsjimin
you're not
im the one trying to understand you
to give you your space
every single day
and you give nothing back
and im tired of it

sinfulsinai
what does that even mean

nojamsjimin
i dont know sinai
but it certainly means i need to step away and calm the fuck down before i do something i regret

sinfulsinai
jimin..

nojamsjimin has blocked you.

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author's note

yikes.

one day left for honey to start too!! ♡