Chasing Dreams

Chapter 14

"WHY DOES my heart beats like this for you? Why do I feel so different when Im with you? Why do I feel like Im going crazy everytime I dont see you? Why do I feel jealous everytime I saw you happy with somebody else?... Ella could you please answer my questions?" he said in a low, sincere voice.

I froze at his questions. Is he inlove with me? Or his only playing games? I dont want to assume though. It hurts to be hurt. Masakit umasa, mahirap. Alam ko din naman na ang layo-layo ng agwat namin, he cant love me. I am just nothing. He's perfect and Im not. Langit sya at lupa ako.

"Ella, look at me please."

"Hhmm?" I hummed and looked at him.

Those captivating little brown eyes of him caught mine.

"I think Im falling for you...I like you... I mean.... I love you Ella." he said.

Whaaaat? I dont know whar should I feel or how would I react. How did this member of such a famous artist fall for someone like me who has nothing?

"No YoonGi..... You cant love.. someone like..me." I said.

Ugh. Why does this hurt so bad? Why does falling for someone like him hurt so bad as hell? Before, I always say that I am on the verge of falling for someone that I cant have and its him- YoonGi.

"B..but why?"

"Because loving me is wrong." I said. I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

"Loving you was never been wrong. And if its the biggest mistake in this life then I am already strong enough to take the consequences even if it means losing my popularity." he said.

"No YoonGi... You really cant love me." I insist.

"Why? Are you married?"

Ugh! YoonGi I am not because ever since I have always been waiting for you. Why does this suck?

"No, Im not." I answered.

"Then let me love you."

Is this really true? or its just a dream? Is this true that this famous artist I've always adore begs me to let him love me?

I was in total shocked that I cant even say a single word.

"Since you came into my life, everything has changed." he said and hold my hand.

"You've made it more meaningful for me to live each day. You even let me realized that loving myself first is the key to let myself found its match and I knew it was you Ella." he said and slowly hugged me.

"You are my match Ella." he said whispering.

I dont know what was exactly happening to me that I hug him back.

"YoonGi.." I said.

"I am just a staff an--"

"And I cant love you? Why is that Ella?" he said as he breaks the hug.

"Why do you always say that you are JUST A STAFF AND I CANT LOVE YOU?" he said scratching his hair.

"You dont know how this beats for you." he said pointing his heart's hideout.

"You dont know what my heart says about you Ella." he continued.

"Then, tell me about it. Give me reasons."

"Loving you has no reasons. My heart just beats for you. My heart wants you." he said.

Totoo ba talaga to? I really wanna believe him but.... I cant. I dont know.

"Tss. YoonGi, love is just so stupid. Its stupidity after all and I know you're not. So dont be." I said trying to hide all my feelings for him invisible.