Look only to Me

Scene 11

A/N : This is almost over, guys! Just a few more chapters remaining.^^

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Although Sing urged him to go to the hospital, Krist insisted that he just have to go home. Sing didn't have a choice but to drive Krist's car back to the younger man's apartment. They staggered inside, with Sing supporting Krist's body to the point to almost dragging him. he then dumped the latter to the sofa, huffing.

"I'll get you some water." Sing tells the younger man. He left Krist who could only grunt, eyes closed and massaging his shoulder.

Krist's eyes are open when he come back, bearing a jar of water and a glass. He placed it in front of the younger man silently. The stare looks eerily blank, and Sing's heart can't help but thumping worriedly.

"Krist? Can you go to the bed by yourself? I'll go home if it's the case." But the one in questioned only avert his eyes. Sing wants to say that he was puzzled by this action, but he can't lie to even himself. Krist must be feeling hurt seeing how his crush getting close to another man.

"..easy."

"..what? what did you just say? Krist?" Sing strained himself to say the mumbled words from the younger man. The shattered look Krist throw him before closing his eyes hurts Sing deeply.

"How could it be that it was so easy of you to catch her attention." Finally Krist uttered those words clearly.

"I didn't mean to!" Sing shook his head, denying it. How could he know that it was him who catch her attention ever since the photo-shoot?

Krist opened his eyes and sighed deeply, still intent to not looking at him.

"I don't know what I feel right now, Phi." He whispered, eyes looking faraway. "I should have given up. But my chest hurts so much.."

"Krist.."

"It must be easy for you, P' Sing.. you can easily catch girls' attention. You're the cool and handsome type. And I-"

"Do you think I have it easy?!" he can't stand hearing another rubbish words from Krist's mouth. That snapped Krist out. The younger man's gaze turns to him.

Sing clenched his teeth. He messed up his hair, removing any semblance of calmness off him. "There's no girl, Krist." he harshly said.

"And then that night happened. How can I think about anything else? I couldn't forget about it." he chuckled dryly. Once again, he shook his head, smiles ruefully as he remembering what happened that night.

"Phi.."

"I couldn't do it, Krist. even though you asked me to forget. Even though you yourself have forgotten about it. I can't move past that night." He confessed. It's now his turn to face away from Krist, unable to stare at the widening eyes, showing a stormy expression.

Sing hugged himself, forcing his body to walk even a few steps away from the man he fell in love with. It hurts to even talk about it right now.

"Phi.." the pleading tone from Krist finally makes him look again. Krist look so vulnerable right now it makes him wants to console him, to take the words back, to give everything he had to comfort the man. Instead, he chooses to clamp his mouth shut.

"I shouldn't.." he took a deep breath. Many thought jumbled inside of his head, but he pushed all of it away. "I'll just let myself out."

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It's fortunate that his practice schedule is apart from the younger man. He had to focus with 'the band' practice first before moving to the choreography part. He won't meet Krist until halfway through.