As long as you can (Cherik)

14. Chapter

I eventually woke up from the coma a week after the fight. I felt like crap. Like real crap. My whole body was in pain.

"Charles!? You're okay?"  Erik shouted the moment he came through the door, seeing me alive and awake.
"Not really, but I'm not dead" I said sarcastically. "Don't worry, it will be okay. Just enjoy right now."
I didn't want him to worry about me too much, because I knew how much strength it would cost him.
But his reaction wasn't what I wanted:
"You nearly died in front of my eyes Charles. And you're telling me not to worry about you? You're dying and I just found the love of my life and you're trying to tell me that I should not worry about you?! I'm sorry but I need to freak out right now! Charles are you not getting it? I'm pissed at the entire world right now for letting you die! I'm pissed for those guys in the park who nearly killed you! I'm pissed at myself for falling in love with you! I'm pissed at you because you're just able to accepted everything the way it walks. I'm sorry Charles but I'm just worried about you because I love you! Do you understand?" He broke down in tears in front of me begging me to understand him.
"I don't know... I want to because I love you. But I don't want you to remember my last month as painful as this. I want you to see the colours and the happiness in this world. I don't accept it... I fight against it with all my strength every moment. I scream into myself every single second because I'm in so much pain! I am suffering so much that you probably can not imagine how much. But I want you to be able to live the life the lord gave to you. I want you to enjoy the moments that you're not in pain... I want you to run and walk and dance without my restriction. I want you to live! I know that you worry about me but I don't want you to live for me, I want you to live for yourself so you can move on when I am gone... I said looking into his eyes.
"I love you more than anything, Erik... So I don't want you to go through the stuff that I'm going through" I said taking his hand. 

"Charles?
  Will you marry me? Will you spend the rest of your fucking life with me on your side as your husband? Will you marry me, my love? No matter how hard it is? No matter what society says? No matter how long your journey still is? No matter how worried i'll be?
I want you by my side Charles... Do you want me by your side as well?"
He got on to his knees in front of my hospital bed with tears streaming down his cheeks. My heart stopped for a moment and I wasn't sure how to answer or how to react. My brain was just not capable of thinking anymore... It was just everything I needed and I wanted.

"Yes, Erik. I will! I said after minutes of fighting against tears and searching for an answer.
He got up to me and started kissing me under tears.

"Wait... I don't have an engagement ring... Charles we need one!
"Hey relax, it's okay... We get me one when I'm out of here but for fiancé let's live."

He then sat next to me on to a chair looking into my eyes with the biggest smile in history... We weren't worried about anything. We were just there in love with each other.