Them (completed)

Chapter 3: Him

Chapter 3: Him

      When I first laid eyes on Shay, she was nothing but a pretty face. I wasn’t thinking about relationships or being emotional with someone. I was just thinking about myself. I had issues from my past relationship including females, friends, and family to think about another girl. I was not going down that road again anyway. I had my own insecurities and issues. I grew up with the mentality to trust no one, not even family. The only person I could depend on was myself. I was in and out of foster homes with my younger bother Kevin since I was six. I’ve been abuse by my foster families, neglected, and not feed. It was me against the world. Shay kept me company and that was it, that’s what I keep telling myself.

      I just saw her pretty brown eyes and nice body. She was equipped with hers hips. She dance circles around me. I was physically attracted to her; there was no doubt about it. Anyone would be attracted Shay. Her smile could light up a room. I love her big brown eyes and thick lips. I love her petite body and her petite breast.

      I’m a guy so I was admittedly thinking with my dick.

      I soon realized there was more to this girl. I could say anything around her and not hold back. I don’t trust many people. The only people I have ever trusted were my brothers Vincent and Kevin, my mother, and Kashia. Kashia was the first girl I thought I was in love with but she abused my trust and left me with hateful feelings towards women. My mother abandon me when I was six. But, I felt something real with Shay. We have a connection that neither of us can explain. The things we talked about, I had never talk about with any other girl before. I never knew I would end up here with her. Hell I never knew I would marry her. Once you realize you can’t live without that person, things seem to come together.

      Setting across from this women and I can’t seem to figure out how we ended up here. Two weeks ago she handed me separation papers and basically told me to leave. I signed the papers but I still had to fight for what I have always wanted. I handed her the papers and told her she could have everything; the house, the cars, and the money. But only if she could look at me and tell me she didn’t love me.

      Instead, she said, “I love you I can’t say I don’t.”

      I persuaded her to come to therapy with me. I had been seeing Dr. Willis for months now and I thought it would benefit us if we went together. Our marriage had been going downhill for a few months now and I needed someone to talk to, to help me. Normally I would not have gone to a shrink but Logan put me on to it. I always assumed shrinks where for crazy people and I am nowhere near crazy.

      I listened to Shay talk about the first time we met and it reminded me of how foolish I was. I was only looking out for myself. Then again I was only 18 going on 19, I still had some growing up to do. I was closed off from everyone, not just women. From my experience, trust no one. I learned at a young age that no one stays around. I couldn’t trust anyone but myself but with Shay I found my better half. I really trusted her with my life.

      Now I have no idea where to go.

      “You guys enjoying yourself,” my buddy Logan asked.

      I nodded and Shay offered a smile. Logan divorce from Tonya was just finalized and he brought a condominium. Logan invited a couple of people over for his housewarming and to celebrate want I called his new life.

      “Okay I’m over here,” he said point toward where the other guests were.

      Logan knew my wife and I were having issues and he was probably shocked to see us setting near each other. I haven’t touched my wife in over 8 months. I just don’t understand where we went wrong. There was no argument or disagreement, Shay just started to pull away.

      Not too long ago I was thinking about when I made partner at Smiths Sr and Jr. law firm. I was Twenty-seven. Smith Sr. retired and Logan, Smith Jr thought I would make the perfect partner. We became Smith and Howard law firm.

      My beautiful wife already knew because Logan’s wife or shall I say ex wife, Tonya, was Shay’s bestfriend. After what happened a year and a half ago they aren’t friends anymore though. Anyway, Logan told Tonya and she told the wife. Shay was already prepared for me. Candle lit dinner and amazing sex. I’ve always loved sex with her. Our body’s feel like they are meant for each other.

      She told me how proud she was of me, she knew I could do it. No matter what Shay always believed in me.

That night she made me a nice dinner.

She led me to the bedroom and licked every inch of my body. I loved every moment of it. She hoped on top of me and road me the whole night. You would have thought we were trying to make a baby the way we was going at it.

Afterward we laid in bed and talk about our dreams, our future.

She told me, “I can only see a future with you.”

I can’t help but think of where we are at now. It doesn’t look like she wants a future with me anymore.

That same night t she told me, “This is what love is. When you can’t let it go.”

I’m not trying to let it go but she keeps pushing me away and I don’t understand. I could have been walked out but I don’t want anyone else but this women.

“I have to get out of here,” Shay said. She headed for the door without so much as a bye.

I trailed behind her; I could tell something was bothering her.

I caught her before she got into the truck. “Shay what’s up?”

“I just want to go home, tell Logan I said bye.”

I held the door open while she hoped in the truck. I drove the truck but I think she was going for the first car she saw, my truck.

“I’m going to another session with Dr. Willis Tuesday. If you want you can come.”

“I don’t think so. I’m going to mail the papers in so we won’t need Dr. Willis anymore.”

Once she said that it cut deep.

“That’s it?”

“O shit.” She bellowed. “Why didn’t you tell me I didn’t drive the truck?” She stepped out the car. “I’m sorry. I’ll see you around Chris.”

She said I’ll see you around like that was the end. Like we would never see each other again. Like we hadn’t spent 6 years married to each other. I was just some dude on the street to her.

She made a B line for her Lexus RX400h Hybrid SUV. I brought it for her 4 years ago as an anniversary gift. She was getting tired of her Mazda 3 that she had since senior year in college. I pulled up in our driveway while she was still sleeping. I blow the horn loudly. She was angry that I was massing up her beauty rest but once she saw the Hybrid in the driveway, she was beyond happy.

She kept screaming, “Yea.” And “O my gosh.”

She jumped up and down for minutes. I love to make this women happy but now I can’t do anything right. I couldn’t put a smile on her face. I can’t even get a smirk on her face. I couldn’t even get any teeth. I’m a funny guy and it’s always been easy for me to make Shay laugh. I just can't make her laugh now. Shay was in a place where I think she needed more than just a joke. I think she needed more than I could give. I was hoping this shrink would help us out but now I could see that wasn’t happening.