Tri-Mance

35.Feelings Can't Be Stopped

Zarniah's POV

"Zion-ssi!"I called him

I can't help but to burst into tears. He always left me hanging. He always act weird. He always say that he loves me but end up being cold. Yes,I am in love with my brother.

But I know it's wrong,that we will never be together. Everything he's says doesn't come to his action. Can't he see it? That I love him too?

He stop walking and faced me.

Hurricane just keep his headset on but he still stayed. What the hell?! Can't he see that this is so private.

Zion started walking towards me while here I am,still crying. He pulled my hand and we started walking somewhere. He wasn't holding my hand tightly,instead I can see that he's still being gentle.

He opened the glass door that shows Fire Exit and I was shocked when it's a beautiful garden.

We went to the bench and he pushed me there to sit. What's with the pushing? Is he mad? Looks like he is. He wouldn't be cold for nothing.

"Spill it"he said coldly while looking straightly to my eyes. I stop myself from crying and try to talk.

"I-I am s-sorry. *sniff* I just can't handle the treatment you're giving to me. I-I ditched. You can scold me if y-you wanted to.*sniff* It's fine. B-but I just want to tell you that I-I'm tired of the treatment you're giving to me"I said and look down. I closed my fists and tried to spill it.

"Just spill it"he said louder.

I stood up and faced him and cried again.

I started punching his chest over and over but I don't have the strength to punch him hard. I keep on crying and started to talk.

"Sobrang labo mo kasi eh. I don't get you. Hindi ko na maintindihan! You said you love me. You said you want to protect me. You said you wanted to stay by my side. What do you mean by that?! Are you still acting as my brother?! Tell me the truth Zion! Because I'm damn tired of being confused! And now! You're giving me a very cold treatment?! Well if your testing me I'm saying it to you right now,I hate it!"I said and cried and cried again.

"Spill it,Zarniah."I know what he meant by that. But it's wrong. So wrong but I can't stop it.

"I-I..."I gulped and cried while saying the words "I love you..."I said and burst into tears again. "It's wrong,I know but. That's it. Ikaw eh. Ikaw talaga ang laman nito"I pointed my heart.

He smiled at pinagtakahan ko naman yun. Can't he see that I'm crying?! Ganyan na ba talaga siya sakin?!

"Okay"that's it? After spilling the beans you won't clean it up?

"Damn you! I just confessed but you still stay calm and you're even smiling—"

He kissed me.

I wasn't able to move. He was my first. Girls know how important first kisses are. And I just got mine. By my own brother.

He moved his lips away from mine so I opened my eyes.

I stopped crying but my face is still full of tears. He gently move his thumb and swipe my tears off.

"Will you trust me,if I tell you the truth?"he asked with a bitter smile. I don't get him. "Will you still love me even if we hide such thing?"he asked again.

I nodded as a sign of saying yes. I am ready whatever he will say,I'm ready to acceot the truth.

"I am not your brother"I wasn't able to move because of astonishment.