Ice Cold (TomTord)

16. Mask

Tord's POV:

"I ran into the forest and found a place that I could...umm live. Ever since then I always could hear odd noices like footsteps. It really scared me..." I paused and sighed.

"And then, I heard the footsteps running towards me so I ran away from them and then you guys found me and all that stuff. But I still sometimes hear strange things. Like when I started coughing blood, remember? I could hear someone talking to me." I said.

"Really? Who?" Tom asked. "I don't really know, just some kind of strange and creepy voice in my head..." I answered him.

"Then it was getting even worse... I started seeing things like someone was looking at me through the window, grinning. But it was always the same person..." I paused again and looked at the other.

I sighed. "It was a strange silouette. It actually looked like me, but it was all black except for it's eyes and mouth. It started appearing in my dreams as well and it told me that...it was some kind of nightmare... MY nightmare..." I said and looked down.

"Oh... I didn't know this was happening to you! Why didn't you tell us earlier?" Edd asked me. "I think I just thought that it wasn't important..." I asnwered. "But it is!" Edd said. I just stayed silent. "Anyway, can you explain what happened yesterday?" Tom asked. I nodded.

"Well, I had some kind of dream. There was the nightmare. It was telling me that we could make a deal... And I listened. It offered me that it will make you guys not hating me anymore and-" I was cut off by Tom.

"What!? You still thought we hated you!?" He yelled. "Tord, we've been talking about this. We don't hate you, we care about you! Why, just why don't you believe us!?" Edd added. I started shaking as I looked up at them.

"I-I'm sorry... I just can't begin to understand... I'm feeling horrible these past few days... I have been feeling guilt and I thought that everyone hated me..." I said and looked down again with tears in my eyes.

Edd sighed. "Tord...please. Believe us, we love you!" He said. "...I know..." I said and smiled slightly. "Anyway, what kind of 'deal' were you talking about?" Tom asked. "Oh yeah, right." I said and wiped the tears away.

"It told me that in return I will allow him to posses me once. He promised me that he wouldn't hurt you guys, but I was so stupid when I thought he was telling the truth..." I said.

"So...it was you who did this to us..." Tom said. "I-I-I am so sorry! I really didn't want to hurt any of you, Tom!" I yelled with tears in my eyes again.

"I should have known..." He said like he didn't hear me. "Tom, I-" I was cut off by guess who...

See? He HatEs You NoW...
No, not you again!
And It'S all YoUr fAuLt!
No! That is not true! It's your fault!
Oh, rEaLly?

The nightmare now kept screaming mean things like 'You hurt them.' and 'You did this to them.' I fell on my knees, close to growning insane. "Tord, are...you okay?" Tom asked in a worried tone. Tears were falling down my face.

The voice was so loud that I couldn't hear anything else. I covered my ears with my hands and shut my eyes tightly. But the voices didn't stop.

"SHUT UP!!!" I yelled out loud and the voices finally stopped. Everything went silent. All I could hear is my breathing and sobbing.

I started crying. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." I kept repeating over and over again. "Tord, calm down. It's okay..." I could hear Edd that was néw kneeling next to me, but I still could hear his voice like he was far away from me.

I stood up and ran towards my room. I could hear them screaming my name, but I didn't care. I locked myself in my room and jumped on my bed. Someone was banging at the door, screaming at me to open it, but I didn't move.

I quietly cried in my pillow. After a while, the voice came back. It was telling me very mean things and things that really hurt me...

CowArD
KilL yOurSeLf
NobOdY loVeS yoU

It hurt me a lot. I sighed and noticed that the banging on the door finally stopped. I stood up and looked under my bed. There was one thing that I always kept in this room and I always did... A knife...

I took it and rolled up my sleeve. I stared at my arm for a few moments and glanced back at the knife. 'Should I do it..?' I thought.

Do iT. NobOdY wiLl NotIcE, tHat YoU're GoNe...

I sighed. 'I guess you are right...' I thought. I raised the knife and I carefully and slowly dragged it over my skin. I flinched at the pain, but I made four cuts. "One for Matt... One for Edd...and two for Tom..." I said to myself and put the knife away.

I stared at the cuts with a dull expression on my face. I sighed and hid the knife again. I found some tissues and wiped some of the blood. I rolled down my sleeve again.

'Maybe I should go out again. The guys are probably worried...if they really do care about me...' I thought. I unlocked the door and decided to put a smile on. A mask...

I opened the door, still with the fake smile and walked into the kicthen and saw them. 'Just...don't...tell...them...'

Tom's POV:

Tord came in the room. As soon as I saw him, I ran up to him and pulled him into a hug. "T-Tord, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to make you feel like this!" I said and squeezed him tighter. He flinched a little, but hugged back.

When he pulled away, he was smiling. But something was weird about that smile... Or was it just my imagination? Probably.

"So Tord, we know that you are sorry... So...we forgive you..." Edd said. "Thank you...so much..." Tord said and we all hugged. I was happy that he was happy. At least... I think he was happy. He was...right..?