Ice Cold (TomTord)

30. Finding you, but loosing you

Tom's POV:

It's been two days since Tord went missing. We made some missing posters and we hang them on the walls of this little city. Even though is is kinda small, we still couldn't find Tord. Today, we're going to search in a part of the city, where we haven't been yet.

"Guys..." Edd said when we were walking there. Me and Matt looked at him. "Yeah?" Matt said. "Do you...think we'll ever find Tord..?" He asked. We stayed silent for a while.

I sighed and looked down. "I sure hope so, Edd..." I answered. We then stayed silent for the whole time.

We reached the place and we decided to split up. I was searching around the park. I sighed. "Tord! Tord, where are you? Please, answer me! Tord!!!" I kept yelling his name, but I never got an answer...

I looked everywhere I could and then decided to check some allyways. There were lots of them, but I didn't want to give up. So I begun searching. "Tord!"

Tord's POV:

I woke up to a loud voice yelling something. I was really tired. I thought that the voice seemed familiar, but thought it was just my imagination. The voice was faded and it sounded weird. 

I brushed it off and sighed. 'I wonder how are the others. I shouldn't care about them... Especially...him. But I just can't help it...' I thought to myself and yawned, earning the burning pain in my chest.

I groaned quietly and closed my eyes, holding my chest. I could then feel the liquid coming out again. I started coughing violently, calm, because I knew what was gonna happen and it didn't suprise me.

But this time it was different... I didn't stop coughing... Blood was still coming out of my throat, burning. Tears were escaping my eyes as I was starting to pass out. It was really cold all of a sudden.

My vision blurred, but I still didn't stop coughing. My lungs hurt when I tried to breathe for air. It felt like someone was stabbing me in my chest. I was panicking.

I was shaking on the ground, coughing out blood and close to crying and having a panic attack. The voice I was hearing got louder...and louder...and louder and it was more clear. It still sounded pretty familiar...

My eyes widened when it hit me... Tom... I saw a blue hoodied male running towards me, still yelling my name. I tried to do something, move, speak, cry for help, but nothing worked. Tom sat beside me.

"T....o......rd...." His voice was loud, but it was still like it was coming far away from me. I blinked and saw...nobody... I rolled my eyes. I closed my eyes and could hear my heartbeat... It was slowing down...it was slower and slower...but it never stopped...

I was ready to die. Pain was slowly fading away and I couldn't feel anything in the end. But I could still hear my heartbeat... But then I realized it sounded more like...a heartbeat monitor... Those beeping sounds...

"Y....u.....w......n't.........d....e......" I heard a voice, but it was like very far away. 'What?' I thought. "Y.....o.........w....o......n't..........i....e......" I heard it again. It sounded more clear, but I still wasn't able to make out, who it was or what were they saying.

"Y....o......u.......w.....o......n.....'t...............d......i............e........." It was much clearer, but it was still hard for me... I tried to process what was I hearing. "Y...o....u.......w...o....n..'t.......d...i...e..." I heard it again. It was loud and clear.

"You...won't...die..." The voice said again. I understood completly now. You won't die! But...why would someone say that? And who was that person?

I opened my eyes, slowly and carefully, afraid of what would happen. And then, I saw something even worse than sleep paralysis...

I was in a room which looked like...a surgery room. There were doctors and nurses around me. I could even see that my chest was...open. It was horrifying. I wanted to speak, to move or something, but couldn't.

I heard the heartbeat monitor. 'So that's why I heard this thing...' I thought to myself. I was looking around the room, only with my eyes since I couldn't move. The walls were all white. I hated hospitals...

The doctors were saying something I couldn't make out, but then I heard something else... The heartbeat monitor was slowing down again... I could see the doctors and nurses looking at it with wide eyes.

They started to put some kind of liquid in me. They were yelling something and looked like they were panicking. My vision seemed darked, but I didn't notice.

'What are they doing? What is going on? Why are they yelling? And...why is the heartbeat monitor...slowing...down...?' I thought.

It hit me. I was dying... I wasn't really scared though. I felt...reliefed. 'Finally, the other can stop worrying about me and live their lifes... I won't bother them anymore...' I thought. If I could move, I would smile.

I was ready to die. I needed to be ready to die... I had no choice... My vision was really dark until it faded away completly. Everything went silent... The doctors, the beeping sound...and my heartbeat...

It was just...dark and silent. I was kinda suprised. 'Is this...how death feels like..?' I thought. I couldn't hear anything... It was strange and odd.

'Did I really die? Or...am I still dying? Or...am I still alive?' I thought to myself. I was trying to process what was happening. All I remembered was that I was in that hospital, doctors and nurses around me.

My chest was open and they were doing something... Then my heartbeat monitor was slowing down... And then..? 'Did I die? Did I survive? If I did, then what is happening?' I asked myself.

Suddenly, a strong light appeared in front of me. '...Heaven? I thought I'm suppose to be in hell...' I thought. Then everything went white and I could hear something again... Talking...

Tom's POV:

I was crying and hugging Edd. I couldn't take it... He's gone... He's not here... I was not there for him... It was all my fault. "Edd... It's...it's my fault... I-I should have found him sooner... I..." I said between the sobs and hiccups.

"Shh... It's okay, it's not your fault..." Edd said. I hugged him tighter and kept crying, the doctor just stood there. He looked upset as well.

And then, something unexpected happened. A nurse came rushing over, she was panting heavily and her eyes were wide in pure shock... "What's going on?" The doctor asked her. We all looked at her and she looked at us. Tears were falling down her face...

"Umm, you should totally go look at this, doctor..."