just a story

my actual advice:

a little background:

in language arts class our teacher had us write down our stress from our year of 7th grade (without writing our name), crumpled it up, and had a snowball fight with other classmates; whichever paper was closest to us, that's the one we had to read outloud and give advice to that anonymous person.

well. i got a paper that was too personal.

i don't remember everything on the note but it was along the lines of genuinely feeling like a "horrible, ugly, worthless" person and how hard it is for them to stay alive.

i didn't want to read it at all. so of course, being a hypocrite, i made 2 of my friends read it instead (kyle and davina).

davina broke down in the middle of the note, started shaking and crying as well as, jessica, and alyssa. mind you i have never seen jess or alyssa cry like they had listening to that note.

what i want to send to this person:

hi so about the note that you wrote on friday,

i had kyle give the advice because i had no absolute clue what to say. i was utterly speechless. well now i know what to say.

so here's my my actual advice:

some people in the world are terrible. there are going to be people who won't like you and you are just going to have to accept that whether you like it or not.

you are going to be with yourself your whole life. and that's a such scary thought. you only have one perspective and one view and one body your whole life and that is not going to change whatever you do. you just need to keep an open mind.

but whatever you do, DO NOT ever go far enough to think of killing yourself. please please please don't ever think about it. if you think no one cares, just know that the people who cried for your note in school and i who cried about it all night also care about you. yes i might've said some things about you before this note. and i'd hate to not admit that to you before we go off to high school. i'm so so so so sorry for whatever i said or have done to you. i care about you so much. please trust me.

if you do feel like you're in a situation where it's hard for you to keep going just please keep this in mind that if you do end your life at this moment, just think about all the happy things you're going to miss. you'll never have children to read bedtime stories to. you'll never experience the fuzzy feeling of a good book or happy song. you'll also never experience laughing with your friends until your stomach hurts and you start crying. none of that is going to happen if you end your life now. please just keep these things in mind. i care about you and i'm sorry.