Falling slowly then all at once ( 5SOS & Ashton Irwin )

Chapter 3

I wake up to Ashton on top of me. I look at him. 

He says " i was trying not to wake you up. "

I smile and chuckle. 

I say " That didnt work. Where are we going tonight? "

Ashton lays back down next to me and sighs.

He says " I think where going to Atlanta Georgia. "

I say " Awesome. "

Ashton looks at me and smiles.

He says " Im so happy that your mine now. "

I say " Well, im hapyy that im yours. "

He says " Should we tell the guys Cashton is in effect? "

I say " Yeah, just not the fans. Not ready for that yet cause i know they go crazy. "

He nods and i throw the covers off us. I climb down adn he does to. I grab his hand and we walk into the living room. All they guys are there. Perfect. Ashton sits down in the last spot and i sit in his lap. 

I say " Micheal, I have something to tell you. "

He looks at me and i can tell i have his full attention. I turn to Ashton adn crash my lips on his. I hear Micheal scream and laugh. I smile in the kiss and open my eyes to meet his. I laugh a little and turn back and lean back into his chest. He wraps his hands around my stomach. I pull my phone out and we take a random selfie. I dont post it on anything. Its just there. 

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I sit backstage and wait for all 9 boys to get done with the concert. I turn my head when i hear someone. I see Hazza ( Harry ) staring at me.

He says " Can you stand up for a moment?"

I say " Uhm yeah sure."

I pull the blanket off of me and stand up for him. He walks to me and grabs my ass. I push him back on the couch and run off. Maybe Ashton was right? He wont stop unless i really do something. Ashton comes up running to me.

He says " Hey babe."

I say  " Hey! "

I lean in and kiss him. Michael whistles. I giglle. 

I say " Im gonna go talk to Niall before they leave alright?"

He nods and i run off and run into Liam. 

I say " Do you know where Niall is? "

He says " Out looking for you somehwere." 

I say " Okay. "

I walk around until i see Niall.

I yell " Niall! I need to talk to you! "

He runs up to me and hugs me. 

He says " Whats up?"

I say " I wanted  to tell you that i umm. I have feeling for someone. "

I look up at him and he smiles.

He says " Who is it? Witch one? "

I say " Ashton. He's my umm boyfriend. "

Niall Smiles and says " Im happy for you little sister. Just remember, no funny buissness. At all, not even once got it."

I say  " You know i wouldnt do that Niall. Not now anyways. I thought you were gonna be mad but i guess you took that a lot better than i thought. "

He says " I knew it would happen, thats why i put you on there so you didnt have to be so lonley. I trust them and i know they wont hurt you. I just thought it would be Luke. "

I say " No, as Michael calls us, its Cashton.  Fans already ship us and they dont even know where dating. "

Niall says " Im proud sis, im really proud you let someone in again. Keep it straight though. Dont let the past mess it up okay? He's good for you. But, i gotta go. I love you. "

I say " Okay, i love you to. "

I pull him in a fast hug before he runs off to his bus. He really took that alot better then i expected. I walk off to find Ashton. I finally find him after 5 minutes of walking around.

He says " How did he take it? "

I say " Really really well. Didnt say not one ad thing. "

He smiles and i see Harry coming our way. I reach up and kiss Ashtons lips to show Harry im not his and im Ashton's. I pull back and he looks at me funny. I nod my head back to show him Harry is coming. He nods and holds my hand. Harry walks up to us and smiles at me and nods at Ashton. 

He says  " Niall wanted me to tell you that he wants to talk to you. "

I say " I already talked to him, but thank you. "

He nods and walks off. I look at Ashton and smile. He leads me to the bus with the fans yelling Cashton even though they dont know where really together. I smile at them and wave. I keep walking and Ashton helps me on the bus. I shut the door and we drive off.  i walk to my bag and pull out my medicine bag. I look at the two bottles. Anti depresion medicine. I stare at them for a while untill i hear someone come up behind me. I turn to see Luke. I trust him. I look back down at the bottle. He takes it from me and sighs. He sits next to me. 

I say  " I dont wanna take it, they make me feel crazy. But im scared i need to take it."

He says " I wouldnt drop off of them. Just like that. Maybe take them everyother day. Your not crazy i swear. If you where crazy you wouldnt be here. You wouldnt have Ashton or any of us. We are here for you. I know i dont know the reason why you take them, and im not sure if you want to tell me but i swear no matter what, we will all be here for you. "

I say " My last boyfriend before Ashton, I dated for 2 years. He was abusive, phyisclly and metally. He tried to rape me, before Niall came and saved me. I dont let many guys in. And that why i had to take them. Then when my mom left me, it made it worse.  I just did what the doctor told me to do. I dont tell people because they always look at me like im crazy. "

i wipe a tear off thats rolling down my face. 

He says " Your not crazy, your one of us. Thats not crazy. "