Falling slowly then all at once ( 5SOS & Ashton Irwin )

Chapter 44

I stand outside the doors. The doors where i have to meet Ashton again. I take a deep breath and walk in. I go straight to the room where there having the meeting. I open the door and walk in. All four pairs of eyes land on me. I sit next to Ashton just to make him mad. I lock eyes with him.

I say " Stop staring at me. "

I look away and pull out my phone. I start scrolling through Instagram. I hear some more voices meaning The vamps are here. Now were waiting on the interviewer. Yay. The dorr opens one last time and the interview people come in. 

He says " Hey guys sorry were late. Got stuck in a situations. How are we doing today? "

I say " Could be better. "

He says " Oh, im sorry. "

I nod and they sit down with some camera men. 

He says " Okay lets get started shall we? Were just gonna ask you a few questions. You know, about the tour, about things your coming up with. Things like that. Okay, so the tour. How did you come up with it? "

Luke says " Well, me the boys and Caitlyn were through socks around one day. You know, she was folding socks and we were agervating her. She yelled dont through my sock out! "

Ashton says " Then i say dont rock out with your socks out. "

Michael says " Then it kinda hit us. So its a bit of a memory for us. "

Calum says " Then we wanted The vamps to preform for us. "

I say " I think its nice that there helping them out. Its like The take me home tour all over again but with different bands. "

Everyone nods meaning they agree with me.  

The interviewer says " Caitlyn, are you gonna be okay doing make up for there eight boys? "

I say " Yeah just fine. Its gonna take some time to get used to but i can do it. "

He says " Who do you think you will spend most time on? "

I say " Bradley or Luke. Like i have said before. There both younger and still get the teen stuff. "

He nods. 

He says " Well, thats it. But being we have you both in a room, hows Cashton going? "

I look at Ashton. I know i have to act like were doing fine. But were really not.

I say " Were doing great. Getting married soon. "

The interviewer says " Oh really! Thats wonderful. Congratulations. "

Ashton says " Thanks. "

He laces our fingers together. I hold his hand loosly. Showing im still mad at him. 

He looks at me and sighs.

The interviewer says " Okay! Thanks you guys. For coming. Now we go into the other room and do The vamps interview. "

Everyone nods and get up and leaves. 5 seconds of summer and me stay in the room. I pull my hand away and stand up.

I say " You all a lot of balls to just leave me like that. Your crazy and i dont see why. You all know i dont like California. You all know i dont like snakes. But you laugh at me anyways. Were not in high school anymore. Dont laugh at something like that. Be normal guys that im friends with not some pricks. And you. "

I turn to Ashton pointing at him.

" You. You left me Ashton. You acussed me that i sleep with many guys. You made me fall so hard and then crushed me. You broke my heart. You did something i trusted you not t do. Why? Because of a misunderstanding. Me and you? Were not okay. But i still love you. All of you. "

Without letting them say a word i turn to the door and leave. I walk around until i find The vamps. I sit outside there door and put my head in my hands. My phone buzzes and i look at it.

Ashton: Caitlyn, i want things to be okay. Im sorry. Will you please talk to me about this? Were supposed to be getting married. We have to talk about it at some point. Please so this for me.

Caitlyn: Ashton just stop. You dont understand how bad you hurt me. How many old memories from my mother that put me through. You dont understand what im feeling. So why would i forgive you? 

Ashton: What did your mother do? 

 Caitlyn: She left me on the step of a house and left. I was 7 years old. No matter what my mother did to me i loved her. It was like that all over again. 

 Ashton: Im sorry Caitlyn. I really am. And i mean it. I have been doing things that i shouldnt. 

Caitlyn: Like what?

Ashton: Well, i got some weed. I know i shoudlnt have. I think thats why i did what i did. I was being stupid.

Caitlyn: Why would you do that? 

Ashton: I wanted to try it. 

Caitlyn: You wanted to try it. Alright. 

Ashton: Are you still mad at me?

Caitlyn: Ashton, i told you. Its gonna take some time for me to not be mad at you.

Ashton: Okay, i understand.

Caitlyn: Im sorry Ashton.

I put my phone down in my lap and stare at the sky. Leaving is gonna be hard. Everything is gonna change and be different. I feel like my love for Ashton will only grow stonger than it already it. Missing him, lying about where im at, everything. My whole life is gonna change. Things are gonna be right. Just leaving Ashton and the boys like that. I think its for the best though. Ill call him everynight and text him. Ill just say i cant see him now. Lie about my life.

The door opens and i turn to see Bradley and the boys. I stand up and smile at them.

I say " Hey guys. You all ready? "

Conner says " yeah lets go. "

We all start walking out and get into a car. We start driving off.