POLARIODS AND PILLOWS.

ten

"why is he still not fucking awnsering me?" jimin exclaims as he throws his phone on the carpet, sighing as he lays down on jungkooks lap.

"he never told you what was wrong?" jungkook asks softly, running his fingers through jimins hair. "no, i dont even know what i did wrong! is he mad at me, kookie?"

jungkook shakes his head, disagreeing. "yoongi is probably just going through some stuff, maybe." jimin sighs, looking up at his best friend.

"if he was, i would be the first one he would go to! i just dont know what to do.." jimin sighs as he picks at his nails.

"at least youre here, kookie." jimin says after, causing jungkooks heart to flutter. he blushes furiously as he forces a smile. "ill always be here, minnie."

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"so... jimin, is like, an adult baby?" yoongi questions, looking up at hoseok in confusion as he bites his lower lip.

"keep an open mind yoongi. theres usually a reason behind it." hoseok sighs, running a hand through his hand.

yoongi shakes his head, his eyes holding sadness. "thats not the problem, hobi! w-why didnt he tell me? does he not trust me?" yoongi squeezes his eyes closed, trying to stay calm.

his best friend had a secret. well, more like two. yoongi thought jimin trusted him with anything and everything, and yoongi cant help but wonder how long hes been hiding this.

"well yoongi, not everyone is comfortable with telling thier loved ones about something like that. and... youve never really been fond of kids, so maybe he was scared you wouldnt like him."

yoongi opens his eyes, realizing all the times hes bitched about kids. all the times he complained about how much he hates children. a tear slips down his cheek as he gets up and walks up to the door.

"thank you hoseok.. so much." with that, he left his own apartment on a hunt.

he had a plan.

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"

jimin, i think youve had enough." jungkook says as he furrows his eyebrows, taking the cup away from the older. he pours the alcohol down the drain before turning his head to check on jimin, who is stumbling to the couch.

jimin had been drinking all night to keep his mind off yoongi. if jungkook hadnt been there to watch him, he would have been even drunker.

jungkook, on the other hand, wanted to chug down that drink he just poured down the drain. his heart was in pain, watching jimin hurt himself over yoongi. it killed him, really. but he had to be responsible for jimin, he told himself.

"kookie! get ovverr heree!" jimin slurred, flopping down on the couch as he makes grabby hands. his body felt loose, his eyelids heavy. nonetheless, he forgot about his pain. thats all he wanted in the end, to forget.

jungkook sighed, walking over to the drunken jimin. "you need to get some sleep, jimin. youll feel better." jimin suddenly pulls jungkook on top of him with a shaky hand, nuzzling into his neck.

"no i wont. all that pain will come back. i feel goood now!" jimin leans back and smiles tiredly, pointing at his face. "see?" jungkook stares into jimins eyes sadly, almost seeing the scars that yoongi left in them. he wants so badly to be angry, that hes killed someone like this. but its not his fault, he dosent know how much his actions affect jimin.

the same way that jimin dosent know how much his actions kill jungkook.

"i just wanna be loved, thats all i wantt." jimin mumbles mindlessly, playing with jungkooks shirt collar. jungkook bites his lip as he blushes, brushing his fingers against jimins reddened cheek. "shh, go to sleep okay? everything will be okay. you are loved. so so much." jungkook says softly and sincerely, sighing afterwards.

"but im not. if i was, i wouldnt be alone anymore!" jimin blinks a few times as he speaks, his mind cloudly from the alcohol. jungkook frowns deeply, biting his lip a little harder. "you wont be alone forever, i promise." jungkook looks down, holding back tears.

meanwhile, jimin is slowly closing his eyes as he mumbles. "n-nobody loves me."

jungkook's eyes snap back up to jimin, tears filling his eyes. "how could you say that, jimin? i love you so much, dont you understand? id do anything in this world for you. but youll never comprehend how deeply im in love with you, because you love someone else. but jimin, it kills me to know that. all i want is to call you mine, yet i know in my broken heart that it will never become a reality. so never, ever think that nobody loves you. because i always have, and i always will." jungkook says quietly, tears streaming down his face as he stares at jimins sleeping figure.

and thanks god that he didnt hear his all too true words.